Moments from mourning.

verbs and nouns.

Sunday, November 16, 2003

To you:THERE.You wanted so much to see this.I've been having feelings for you for quite some time.It's just that you don't realise and i don't show it cause' i was sensible enough to think about you and your girl.Few days ago.You asked my about my feelings.Finally i confessed.That also took me alot of time to think over and over again.Many questions here and there.I've been hurt by you many times.I guess i was too afraid to say it out.Most of the time,our many 'conversations' will just lead to arguements.I know it's me.I don't blame you if you think i'm a bitch.I know i've hurt you many times too.I do what we do cause i guess i just wanna make you happy or i'll just do for the sake of doing it and getting everything over and done with.I feel as if i'm in this huge mess that i can't get out of.Sometimes you also say things just like that without thinking.I feel as if you don't spare any thought for my feelings.You have to tell me off cause' of things i say.I'd feel like shit after that.Whatever i say,you have a problem with it.Can't i say 'whatever'? I'm entitled to what i want to say.You yourself should know that i'm one hell of an emo girl.Still,i find myself getting hurt time and time again.These nights i've been crying to myself just thinking about what has been happening.I've said whatever you want to know.Please.Tell me how you feel.I'm really really sorry if i'd hurt your feelings.

Penned this one last
because it was the hardest
Yet it meant the most to me at the same time
Feelings are tough to explain
when what i feel is bigger than any word that i can find

So i wrote you this song
To tell you i love you
But I know that thats much less than you deserve
It's all so much less
Then these feelings i'm feeling
I hope my actions speak louder than words
Call me whenever, and i will come running
I'm ready and waiting for ever for you
I'll give you my whole heart
To hold as your keepsake
If you should ever need proof

Remembering the times that we spent together
I know how good it feels to be in your arms
Im always so happy and filled up with laughter
when ever i'm with you i feel safe and warm