Oh god.I feel like some loser.Why has it gotta be like that.I admit i didn't study hard enough.
I played my ass off.I slacked alot.I don't want to retain.Might as well i just jump down some block.
How embarrasing it is.The disappointment and embarassment.I don't want my parents to feel that way about me.
This is all i can give them.A good future.9 people retaining.How'd think i feel? Like i just got shot thru' the head.
Please put a gun to my head.As much as i want everyone to go up,it's not possible.Everything's really going wrong.
I'm really really scared out of my wits. I just want to break down.Tears are in my eyes.I'm feeling realy scared.My heart is beating so fast.I don't know wheather i can take it.SIGH.I think tomorrow's the day.

On a lighter note,we started our creative comp already.Got the whole class to participate with us.We did the song first.Spent have the day playing it.The skid was okay.Hah.Our class couldnt paint.We didnt have enough white paint.
Ms dotty face Chia didnt want to give white paint to white wash.And HELLO? our whole calss is painted blue.I swear the amount of paint we have is pathetic.And she rejected our design.HELLO? it's our class.Stupid old hag.My fingers are swollen from playing the contrast bass.Hah.Classical bass la.Strings are so thick.Have to cut my nails.Hah.The strings are ruining my nails.Hehs.Was figuring out the tabs.Abit blurred.Yups.

Been msging han the pass nights.I'm glad we talked about last time and now.How different everything was.Prolly will try to ring him later.I just can't get the retaining thing out of my head.I just hope i won't.I don't want my closest friends to retain too.I'll just cry.Life's a bitch.Espeacially now.

Ouiters never win.