The lower side is a jukebox playing the deadman's crescendo.

*The Used-Soundeffects and overdramatics.

Hello! Pass few days had been draining.Been pretty busy with the creative comp.We worked so hard.We begged them to let us in.We had no time.We put in so much effort to do this.There was alot of last minute thing but we pulled through.Auditions yesterday was alright.Live music was way much better last year.

Results today.We got in.There was alot of hoo-haa before all of this but yea,we're in.We're competing against 1.6,1.8,3.3,3.6,3.7 Haven't seen their script or acting.Oh wells.Lessons today was oh so boring.Had malay in which i told sharifah to tell cikgu i was sick.So i had an hour of sleep.BLISS.English next and then classroom cleaning.Debbie came over after school.We made badges.HAH.

Pictures will be up by friday i hope.Want to get all the creative comp thing together before i post it.Rehearsal tmr.My mum asked me not to go to school then i said it'll be okay if she could write me a letter.She said,'lazy'.RAH! Heh.Anyways,i'm getting all sleepy.Ltrs.

Queer sex is great, it's fun as shit.

*Funeral For A Friend-Novella.

Heyhoo.Figured that since N's are over,i should start updating on a daily basis? Hah.OK.Hmmm.The whoke week was pretty much okay i guess.Didn't go anything much.Went to town on monday with veron.Got my fabric paints and skirt.Yeps.Walked around and went home.Online till 3+ talking to zad and drawing faces.Hehh. Slept for awhile,had sahor then i slept till' 0600am.Stupid school so fucked.Why must they make us come back to school.There's nothing in school we can do other than study.Argh.

I slept through most of the classes on tuesday only during malay i think i was awake cos' we were watching some vcd.Other than that,i slept.Hehh.School on tuesday was crappy la.Hehh.Yesterday we had rock climbing which most of us were so reluctant to go but since the schoold forced us.Bus journey was fun.Sang songs and pretended to be tour guides.And we're already sixteen.HAH! Yeps.I saw someone familiar.Haha.Saw syafiq ah! Like how long sia.2yrs+? I dunno.I know it's been long.Then he said he couldn't remember me until i said i was the saxophne grrl and he was the bassist boy.Hee.Hmm..in the end all of us did it.Learned how to belay(?) and climb.Climbing was crap cos' i couldn't really climb.Stupid rocks.Oh wells,went home yesterday and i broke my fast early.i felt guilty.Pffrt!

Had rock climbing again today.It was good except for the aching muscles.Haha.We were tested on belaying.I'm a certified belayer! Hahaha.Was belaying the instructors.Heavy asses.Hahh.Climbed the easiest wall thrice and tried to climb some other walls.HAH.Yea.Had some other form of climbing which was really cool.Syafiq did the hangover(?) but he fell halfway.He strong ah! Hahh.Did streching and we were allowed to leave.Me and debbie slacked with syafiq before heading to bugis.Stupid debbie.YOU SETAN AH! Try to tempt me to break my fast! Fag infront of me.Steal people's rokok! Haha.Went to the MRT station with another instructor.He so nice to us.Hahaha.Talk to us about climbing and all.

Jamming today was so crappy.Siti and i didn't know how to sing.Veron didn't know the tabs.Debbie and i were super duper tired after all the climbing and stuff.Hahh.Oh wells,we just started again.I'm sure things will pick up fast.Tomorrow we're heading to the Changi Musuem.BORING! Hah.Coming back to school for creative comp rehearsal also.Hope everything goes fine.Zad,take care okays? broken hearts from BLEEDING THROATS! May the force be with you! Remember got derby and nurul memory and also henry and jenny allistarr.Hahh.Okays,my bloody muscles are aching like crazy.Ltrs.

Frontpage and the fame

Got bored and ruin my pe-shirt.

HAHAHA.SLENG AH!

Then a silence so heavy, broken hearts fall from throats.

*MeWithoutYou-January1979.

Heys.Back from the gig.It didn't go as plan.My idiotic lame ass dad had to force me to go home.I am so fucking pissed at him i swear.The gig just started somemore.I heard 2 bands play and i rushed home in a cab.Pffrt.So gay.But i managed to mosh a little but no kungfu dance!!HAHA.And the mr from the wall between fell on me.Kinda shock me.Heh.Oh wells.Was dissapointed that i didn't hear rese's band.Was on the cab home and this taxi guy was pretty cool.Talk to me about rascism and matchmaking all.Cool ah.Hah.

Got home and read the zine that was given out.Everything in there is so true.Gonna show veron and debbie when i see them.Haha.They talk about anti-sexism and grrls and all.I like ah.Was telling siti.Haha.Poor girl got so angry at the guy who took the suitcase and hit her.Sial.Haha.EWICK! i'm sorry,they ran out of rasPberry waffles,so we got you blueberry waffles instead.Enjoy the lovely waffles ya? and the card and also the drawing.You're so hardxcorexXx.ROFL.Fasting later! SICK UH! Eh imagine if we were cats and cats were human? Hehh.

Put aside all that.I'm feeling kinda down.I'm sick of telling myself that i will get him back.I'm sick of waiting.Yes,i waited all along.Waited for him to come to his senses.But,i guess he did and he wanted what was good for him.All i can do now is forget everything,even the memories.No matter how hard i try,i'm not gonna get what i want.It's time to pick things up and stop worrying about love.I believe it'll come when it's ready.I enjoy the company of lovely friends,really.I hope you'll read this.Sigh.

THANK YOU ZAD! Everytime talk to me at night,lecture me,talk rubbish to me.Talk about kittens.HAHA.We always talk about cats.HAH! I love cats.I wished i was a pretty persian grey colour cat.OK.Makan now.Ltrs.

And this town maybe a darker shade of red.

*The Stills-Lola stars and stripes.

Heys.Haha.I'll post a decent entry since the last few ones have been pictures with words.Haha.Hmm..so N's have ended.Accounts was..accounts.Didn't balance my balance sheet.Oh wells! I thought trading was gonna come out but it was..partnership.PFFRT! Put aside that,went to town on monday.Was okay.Spend my day slacking.

Having a weeks' break.Days are going fast.Tuesday was slack,my mum didnt allow me to go out.Stupid bitch.Hah! She said.'No going out.Everyday wanna go out' I mean,hello! My n's are over.I stayed home and rot.= Heh.Wednesday,went to bras basah to see the fabric paints there.Kinda cheap.Much more cheaper than spotlight.Rippers.Went to swee lee to see guitars after that.Heh.Met del.HAHA.HE COOL AH.He's the coolest among the coolest(eh?) HAHA.He's got spiral arm hair.Heh.Met weeman,gymster also.Hahaha.Had to go home cos' was having kenduri at my house.Heh.Was up the whole night talking to ewick and debbie.

Bumped around at home yesterday.Didn't do much.Going to the gig soon.Meeting with al-debbio at 5pm and i'm still here..blogging! I'm gonna be late and she's gonna kill me.Hahaha.I've got friendship gifts for..ewick,debbie,siti,dani and veron.=) i shall go now.Going to learn kungfu dance.YAY! Fists up! Kick here and there.Heh.Ltrs!

She was living alone,unhappily

We could do it, it's right romantically.

*Death from above-Dead womb.

If ever cones a night full of shiny stars,

I'll be the first to watch it with you.

Without worry or despair,

I'll always be by your side for problems to share.

No matter how hard,no matter how tough,i'll be there.

I'm falling for you,i fell for you.I still love you.I really do.

Red glares from the color of outstretched hands.

*Billy Talent-River below.

N's has ended for some.But,i still have to take stupid accounts.Ugh.It's annoying.Money makes me go crazy.Spending it gives so much satisfaction then actually studying about it.Endure,i shall then it'll be freedom till' results day.Ltrs.

I'm restless for the silence in the air

I'm running my mouth dry,everytime i lie.

*The Rocket Summer-Cross my heart.

Forgive me, but I can't be everything you deserve.

And I know it's too late to crawl back to you tonite.

But theres a few things that I just need you to know.

The way I felt when we were close.

And how the stars explode everytime you are near.

I am so far, I couldn't see

But you made every day so sweet

All along you were there,

Waiting by my side.

You loveD me even though I don't deserve it.

Had a deep conversation with nicolette today.I realised,i don't know what i want.You keep thinking about last time when you know it'll never come back.You always think you've move on but in actual fact,you're just kidding your god damn self.YOU never bother asking me about how i felt.You never really did care did you?.Being pretencious is just insane.I can't pretend that your not mine anymore.

N's have already started.I won't update soon.