Moments from mourning.

verbs and nouns.

Monday, May 31, 2004

I thought of you and my worst,
brings out the best in you.


*Sugarcult-Memory.

Start of the school holidays.Today has been such a super boring day.I've been on the net eversince i woke up.My grandma is so contradicting.One minute she said that she'll be going to my uncle's and the next,she's at home,cooking.SPOIL MY MONDAY PLAN! Old folks.Ugh.My dad was being such a bastard yesterday night at 12,'GIRL,GO SLEEP NOW.I don't want you to hog on the phone.You BETTER sleep early.I want you to sleep early and get up early'.FOR WHAT?! I cannot STAND him.Dumbfucks.

Wanted to go to the republic gig but there's no one to go with.I'm so lazy to go also.Hah.Furthermore,i haven't bathe since morning.Smelly belly.Hehh.Was in friendster,saw saini's picture.Oh my.He is SO much better looking now.With the HAIR.*drools.(sorry debs).One thing about saini i've always liked,HIS HAIR.Woowheee! And you said we could be friends.Your not even replying me nor have the decency to call me back.I wonder why i'm trying so hard.

//When we first met
It seemed so right me and you
We had it all we had it made
What we had was true
But the months have passed
And we didn't last the test of time
See you now and then
Thought you were my friend
I was wrong this time//

Not every relationship has an happy ending.I wish mine was a fairytale.And in the end,Happily Ever After.

Yesterday's not all that bad
Sorry I could not make this last
Yesterday's not all we have
Sorry I could not make this last

Saturday, May 29, 2004

Literate and stylish,
kissable and quiet.


*Taking Back Sunday-Summer Stars.

Heys.Uploaded the photos already.Yeps.Thursday was the last day of school.It was alrite.Had mass in the morning and then class room cleaning.Hah.Wiped one window and i was too lazy after that.Got SPIDER! I don't like.Hurr.Slacked at the staircase with debbie.Down memory lane again.Good ah?! Ooo.Our class won for the canossian expression thing.Was really happy.=)

After school joanna,sharifah,eileen,tanya,deb,me,veve went to tampines to watch shrek2.Before that we went to go eat lunch where i bumped into my mum.Heh.Yea.Anyways,the movie was great! Hah.I actually teared but it was good.Puss in boots! Heh.Went back to veron's.Wanted to jam but ended up watching lion king with lisa.Haha.What sia.Went home in the evening.Online since.

Yesterday debbie msg me and told me she got CHICKEN POX! Haha.So we cancelled all the jammings and stuff.Yea.Went to debbie's house to watch final destination 2.Didn't complete the show cause the second disc was crazy.Hah. Left her house to go meet someone else. Slack,slack,slack.Talk,talk.Akwardness.I hate to feel this way.Whatever it is la.Got home.Slacked more.

Today was parents-teacher meeting.It was okay but results were fucking terrible.=( Passed only the languages.The rest was all U! 31st position in class.Hah.Didn't know i was that stupid.Hurr.Lucky i didn't go home with my mum.Stayed for band.My maid told me she nag upside down.Haha.Nag then nag la.Can't do anything about it already.Just have to study harder next time.Gonna go plan my days later.

Whole family going to malaysia for some wedding tommorrow.Gonna stay home and guard the house.Harhar.Then monday will be slack day cause no one's gonna be home! Home alone.=) Yayness.No grandma naggings.Just me and my music.Hmm..Did you called last night? Was already sleeping if you did.Anyways,monday,monday! Hah.No know what i'm driving at.Call me then we can plan alright.Hurr.Ltrs.

And my heart is breaking
Would you hear me baby
As the tears are longing
For what it used to be

Wednesday, May 26, 2004

Love shouldn't be melancholy.


*Student Rick-October Skies.

Heys.Hmm.Today was wear what you like day..No,no.Canossian expression day.Hurr.Every class has to come up with a theme.Our class came up with wearing all black and having tinsels in our hair.So it was kinda cool la.Came to school and drew eyeliner and all.Hah.

Everyone had stars on their nails today cause of ME! Drew stars in their nails.Heh.Yea.Watched some gangster movie for mother tongue and physics.Social studies after that.Hah.Couldn't really be bother.Ogle,ogle at guys for recess cause the st.pats guys were selling their fun fare tics.No money to buy though.

The rest of the day in school was okay.Hah.Exchanged shoes with nic.Stupid VANS shoes.I used to think it was cool,but it's NOT! Hah.Take loads of photos.Well,not loads la.Took photos.Hah.Yeps.Left with debbie,mel,sharifah and jo after school.Headed to tampines.

SUPPOSE to meet jamal.But he didn't even answer his phone.Maybe i shouldn't jump to conclusion but..GRR! Dissapointed.Talk about being sincere.Whatever it is la.It'll never be cause i don't wanna be the fool anymore.Was a hopeful when i left school.Came home all shattered.I give up already.I should have listen to others.I've been working for,something oh so FAKE.

Hmm..Thanks for today and for the letter also okay? Appreciated all that.I guess what you said was right.In the end,you were there for me.Thank you.=) Ltrs.




More here.


you contradict the fact that you still want me around.

Tuesday, May 25, 2004

Don't leave me,
without saying goodbye.


*Audio Karate-Halfway Decent.

Heys.*yawns.Late already and here i am still blogging.Hah.Hmm..the past week has been okay.Saturday was okays.Went to meet SOMEONE whom i didn't see for quite some time.Heh.Headed to town for laksa and we saw IMRAN! Haha.Your GRACEFUL! your LIVELY!.I miss the boys plenty.=(( Trained down to kembangan for tiffy's party.Hah.Our sense of direction was the worst please.We took the bus and we landed at some jalan selamat which didn't look really selamat.Took a cab to her house instead.

Party was okay.Not much people.More like dinner and dine kinda thing.Hah.Had salad first then pasta and beef.Her family members were like waiters.Haha.Got served by them.Went out to the backyard with debbie and tristan(tiffy's cousin) and sat at the swing.5 stars that night.WE were suppose to be out stargazing that day together.A pity it didn't happened.Talk,talk,eat,eat.Go home.Hah.

Sunday was just the same like every other sundays.Hah.Yea.Didn't turn up for school yesterday cause i was darn lazy.So i told my mum that school started late.Hah.Ended up going to debbie's for breakfast.Met tanya after that and we went lepak at starbucks.Hah.Me and tanya went to the esplanade after that.Walk,walk,walk.Talk,talk,talk.Had a great time actually.Peninsula for spenillis after that.Home SWEET home.

Today was an OKAY day.UNTIL Ms lim called the house! Oh noo.I'm in dipshit please.My mum don't know.My uncle knows everything.Heh.Actually now,i can't be bother.Hah.Anyways,tommorrow is wear what you like day! Yay! Hah.And i'm gonna snap,snap,snap away with the camera.Ltrs.

When boredom snaps in..




i'm falling for you,i fell for you

Thursday, May 20, 2004

But it breaks my heart,
to know I can't hold you.


*Suicide Machines-Never promised you a rose garden.

Hello wellos.No school for me today.Heh.Got sent home yesterday.Fever+cough=sickly muni.Haha.But half the morning was alright.Went to school.Sat down and crapped around with sammy.Mrs loh said that since we were in a good behavior during the examination period,she made wear what you want day today.And if we're good,she'll make it on monday,tuesday and wednesday also.=)

Went back to class without the chinese girls cause they went to go watch BUTTERFLY LOVERS.Haha.So left with me,sam,muliana,sharifah and nic.Talk crap and they sang all those lovey dovey songs.And i started to cry like a fountain.Emo and partly cause i was sick? Hah.You know,sick pple cry at times? Get what i mean? Yea.

Got back physics yesterday.Surprisingly,i passed.Heh.Boderline.25/50.Hahaha.And i didn't even fucking study for physics.Haha.But the combine science,fail.I got the highest for mcq.Hahah.16/20.=)) But structed question was crap.9/30.Rubbish marks.Heh.Mrs boo was upset.Don't blame her though.It's our fault also.Social studies.Ugh! Failed.22/50.I keep getting all this lousy marks.I used to pass all my social studies test.End of year i got 29/50.I dropped like crazy can.OK CAN.

I wanted to go home after that.So i went.Heh.Went to the doctors.Give all that medicine and blah blah blah and i went home to sleep.My parents were being irratants.Here i am sick and there they are ranting about me not drinking enough water.Waddahell.Irratating sia.Slept the whole day.Online after that.Wrote some stuff for re-uniting.I hope all this will come to a something.

So today,while everyone was enjoying their wear what you want day,i went to johor with my parents and auntie to go measure my baju kurung.My mum wanted me to go.I thought i could catch up with the band to go jam but in the end,my mum la.Shop for groceries like there's no tomorrow.And the actual plan was to just measure our clothes.Dumbfucks.Called up debbie and asked about jamming.Heard they only played a song.Right.

Ooo.Passed my english.I mean for overall.Fail paper 2 by 2 marks i think.Oh my.Like tanya said,geog can go suck tits for all i care.I failed terribly.8/50.This marks are more rubbish than the physics.Anyway the whole class failed so why i care? Heh.Hmm.So far i only passed english.WAH.GOOD AH?!

Another day in school tomorrow.Have to wear band uniform tomorrow.Got some filming thing.Haha.Anticipating? Maybe.Saturday will be another shopping day.Debbie wants to go shop.So maybe i'll go.Then head down to tiffy's.Hmm..Saturday afternoon would be great.Let's catch up.Just tag me or msg me the time and place.Ltrs.

the best day of my life is all thanks to you

Tuesday, May 18, 2004

Can you count how many tears fall from my eyes?


*Mustard Plug-Lolita.

Heys.I think i'm gonna die soon.Heh.All this coughing.I think i have TB.No,no.I hope i get fucking TB.Anywhore,school has been shit.

Received some papers back today.Hmm.Accounts and bio.Bio was crap! 23/50 for only the bio component.I think i'm gonna fail my physics too.Accounts.HAH! can never pass that stupid subject.And so the lowest was 17 and the highest was 95.Shellen got the highest.Haha.Smart girl.I think i did quite okay for paper 2 eventhough it wasn't a pass.27.5/60.It was good okay! I know i fail la.Improvement.Hahaha.Accounts paper 1 was the best.8.5/40!! Oh nooooo! Oh crap! Screwed up the paper bad.Stupid creditors and debtors.Ahhh! Screw ah.

After school was drama,drama.Not gonna say what happen or any of that.Whatever it is,TANYA,CLLS is a call away.Don't hesitate to call any of us ah.Haha.Me and tanya trying to plan our death.Geri wants to die with glam! Haha.Me and tanya the movie style way.Eat pills.Hahahha.What crap.Went home to sleep after that.Debbie ah.Msg me say she at yishun.She saw KHAI! but dunno which one.Haha.And she saw PIERRE! DAMN! She gets to see all the good looking guys.=(

Saturday seems like a very packed day.Band in the morning,out in the afternoon,gig with kelly and debbie maybe or i'll just go to tiffy's birthday party.Time management.I shall try to sort things out by tomorrow.Heh.Oh and to those fake TAGGYNS.William Hung? You can go fuck the spider for all i care.My toes are laughing.HAWHAWHAW.How childish can all this asses get.

SIGH.Talk with everyone else just now.No one seems to understand the situation.Everyone's like 'give up la,give up.' But hey,it's not wrong to try again right? But AGAIN,rejection.Sigh.I'm only lying to myself if i say that i'm moving on fine.I take years to move on.YEARS! Heh.Why are all this shit happening? One after another.Life seems sucky at the moment.And the stars are not shining cause i'm crying tonight without *you by my side.Melodramatic quween.Ltrs.

And you took my heart again.

Sunday, May 16, 2004

I like the ones who say they listen to the punkrock.


*Catch22-It takes some time.

Heys.Been a few days.Just needed time to be alone and think thru'.Sigh.Things are different.Now i know everything.But it's not me.It's him? I guess i'll always blame myself.Well,it'll take awhile but i think i'll let go.Sigh.Love is selfish.Ahh.Fuck it all!

Friday was okays.Accounts1 was just dumb.Haha.What sia.Open the booklet don't know a single shit.I'll so gonna fail bad for this paper.Hurr.Went to macs for breakfast.Met tanya and mal.So dumb.There was this sec2 bung who went to order.'Can i have a Mcmuffin?' Then the cashier said,'Just the muffin?' Them she answered,'No.The whole burger' Waddahell?! Haha.Dumbfucks.Yea.Went to go buy coloured contact.And dye.Went back to debbie's hse to dye our hair.Our hair not even blue! What crap.Waste money please.After that we went to slack around and i started crying reading all his msgs.Ahhhh! Hah.Emo muni.Went home in the evening.Did nothing much.

Went to joey's party yesterday but before that we went to town.Wah.Like saddist sia.Took train alone,went to far east alone.Hahha.Met debbie at far east with her primary school friends.Hah.Yeps.Walked around and all.Thought that we'll bump into jamal and all but sigh..we didn't.=(( Kinokuniya to get my pen so i can draw stars on my nails.Hahaha.Found out that the boys were at heeren.But we were in the train.='((

Yea.Debbie got so angry with *insertnamehere.I got scared you know! She down there shouting.Whatever la bitch!! Oh my.It's sad that things gotta be this way.Sigh.She was all so emo.Heh.Slacked around and then we ate.Hahahaha.Prisca just made my laugh so hard.Her expressions are so funny.Hahaha.Yea.Went to walk around with sa after that.Just cried and cried and my eyeliner smudged! Hahaha.How ugly.Heh.Sang the birthday song and then we went fagging with a BIG lighter.Hahaha.Went back to drink and stuff.White,white wine.Heh.

More talking about guys between me and debbie.This year is just a bad year.Went to the back for more fagging.4sticks straight.BLISS.Took things off my mind.Heh.Was msging kelly also.Poor child.Lost her guy because of that FUCKED UP BAND! Same situation.So we suggested to form and all girl ska band.And our band name is GIRLS WITH PRIDE! Ajid will be with us too.Hahaha.=)) Maybe going out with her next week.=))Its time we find for a new punkrock valentine.It's time for some hardcore ogling.Hee.Anyways,went home at 10.Smelled like smokeeee.Hah.My fingers smells of ciggies.Hehh.

Hmm.YOU! I'm always the one waiting for you to come in.You're taking such a long time.You'll be there for me? I don't believe you.You just want me for that.I don't want all this already.I've made up my mind.You don't like me for who i am.You like me because of your own liking.You never loved me like i loved you.Ltrs.

We'd run away in our dismay, but please, come back to me

Thursday, May 13, 2004

My needle hits groove,and a song rings out so clear.


*Goldfinger-Answers.






Tell me that it's over.I thought everything would be fine.Again,i was wrong.Together forever could never last.Nothing gold can stay.Bye,bye beautiful.








i'm falling all away

Wednesday, May 12, 2004

For tonight,you're only here to know.


*AFI-Girls Not Grey.

Heys.Mid-week.Maths paper 2 today.Ahhh.Crap ah.All this silly questions all from the dustbin please.My curve was so horibble.Ugh! Today just isn't a good day.Bad hair day,block nose.What else.

Eastpoint after that.Ate and was telling stupid ghost stories.Hurr.Scaring the shit out of everyone.Went to go walk around with debbie then we headed to burger king to 'study'.Ended up going to pet safari.See all the pussies and doggies.The puppies so cute.Wanna take a little squirt and squeeze em'.Hahaha.Yea.Studied abit.Down memory lane again.Good ah?!

Tampines to walk around and met debbie's friend Mr honky.Hurr.And then we saw ZEN! That crazy bugger.Loser/poser.Hahahaha.He look so sleng.Hahahah.ZEN! Ahaha.Anyways,headed to city hall with Mr honky after that.Nice chap to talk to.Hurr.

Met up with jamal,jamalrudin.Esplanade.Hot as ever.Bumped into chel and ian.Heh.It's been quite some time since i saw her.Yeps.Slacked around for awhile and he had to go cause he was heading to his auntie's.Was pretty down.But i guess i have to give in.Hope saturday we'll be able to go out and spend some time.And not forgetting the blue hair.Wahhh.=)

Hmm..YOU! Never change one bit.Aiyah.It seemed that long.Aye! I mean catch up as in catch up.Not THAT catch up la fool!! Hahaha.I wonder too? Hur.How's you and your family stuff and your girlfriend and your work and all that? Heh.Hey,did i tell you.honey-stars are the best stars in the universe? Well,if i didnt,they are.=) Ltrs.

the whole world is sound asleep,
but the whole world isn't like me

Tuesday, May 11, 2004

But I grew up,wishing on a star.


*The Get Up Kids-Sympathy.

//I saw my better half,
The better half of a decade,
Slip through my hands inside her hands inside my pockets.
When she reached for her advantages,
I should have done something.

I saw my baby boy digging his own hole,
Keeping alive family traditions.

When he lied about intentions,

I should have done something.
I should have done something.
Well,I blame myself for everything,
It keeps my conscience clean.
I've got bandages to prove it,
To prove it.

I saw my better half,
The better half of a decade,
Slip through my hands inside her hands inside my pockets.
When she reached for her advantages,
I should have done something.//

Sorry tried to come out from my mouth.It seemed easy but it wasn't.I'm a jinxed,screw up,fucktard.Whatever it is.I screwed this shit.This happened the last time too.I'm trying hard.Said things which i regretted so much.I didn't know he was having his own problems.Wasn't being underestanding.Lost in my own world.I realised that all i care about is myself.How shallow can i get.Sigh.I hope things would get better for us.=)

Physics and maths have been crap.So much careless mistakes which i wouldn't wanna talk about now.All this late nights have been making me sick.Down with fever.God,i feel like dying.Haha.My grandma joker.She was telling me 'you better don't eat panadol everyday.It's not good for you' Since when did i eat panadol everyday.Hahaha.Sometimes,i just love her cuteness.Ahahaks.

Maths paper 2 tomorrow.I hope it'll be better than today's paper.Oh! Made friends with Firdaus from ShowSize9.Hah.How lucky can we get.Hehh.Can't wait till friday.Paper finish,blue streaks,studded belt,birthday party,gig.Weekend to rock on with.Anticipating please.I miss my valentine.Sigh.OH YA! NICOLETTE GLORIA MARK SAGARAM! Miss you loads!! Which ass did this to you? Of all,hand food and mouth diesease.Poor child.Hahah.Will be waiting for your comeback! Then we can go make fun of *insertnamehere.Hahaha.Grapes and wine.How fun.=))

Hmmm..Unknown? Hurr.I know who you are sweets.Hah.Yea.It's been awhile.It seems like 19383728years.Hahaha.This few days have been filled with great memories.I missed you.We should catch up.I smiled reading your tag.Some things just don't change.Ltrs.<3

Oh.Did i mention,honey-starrs are the best stars in the universe? =))

I keep the memories of a broken you

Saturday, May 08, 2004

This town is full of dumb reminders.


*No use for a name-Not your savior.

Heys.Finally saturday's here.Seems like the days have been going by really fast.Vroom,vroom,vroom.Tuesday was great.Went to eastpoint after school.Lunched at burger king and studied at starbucks. Rach,fel,sa,jo,sharifah,deb,mel,jolene and me.Sat with debbie at one table.We were like down memory lane please.Talking about the first time we met saini and jamal.From sweet memories to the bitter one.Well,it's already gone.For debbie la.Hurr.Send her off the the mrt then went to starbucks to meet the rest.There's a cute waiter at eastpoint.Mahaha.You don't have to go all the way to FAR EAST actually.Hah.Went home at 0530pm.

Wednesday was like every other day.Lessons were okay.Didn't meet jamal cause that fella had some test to take so back home to study social studies.Was studying and i fell asleep halfway.That's how boring social studies can fucking get.Got up and studied more.Was on the phone till 12.Woke up in the wee hours of the morning to study.Lucky i managed to get all the stuff in my head.

The duration of the paper should be extended! Didn't managed to complete my 10marks essay question.I knew how to do that question somemore.All the points memorised.But i just didn't had enough time.Spent it too much on source-based.Oh wells,it's over already also.Headed to whitesands maccies for brunch.Nic,jo,eileen,sam,sa,linette,fel,rach,deb,mel,nor,geri. The whole crew.Maha.We had our laughs there.I was constantly being pushed by sam.Hahaha.Grapes and wine.Sucking on *insertnamehere tits.Sprinkle some alpha bits and everything will be fine.Mahahahahaa.God,that really cracked the shit outta me and nic.Went home after that.Had no mood to study for geog.Indulge myself in a big box of honeystars.Sleep,sleep after that.Started studying at 0930pm and that was only on tourism.Hurr.I was planning to fail anyways.

Geog paper on friday was better than i expected.Luckily i studied tourism and industralisation.Most of the essay question was about tousim and industralisation.Hurr.Map reading was alright.But the essay! Wahh.I swear,they should really extend all these humanities paper.My 13marks answer was as long as my 6marks answer.Ahhh! Hope the points are relevant.Hurr.Went to town with veve and deb after that.My budget eating buddies.=)

Took a 14 there.It took such a fucking long time to bloody hell get there.No more nicoll highway.Grrr.We sat in the bus for more than an hour before finally reaching there.Lucky plaza,far east(no khaiS),heeren.Bumped into sharifah,ade,ben.Went to hmv to check out the cds.I wanna get the get up kids.Debs went to go meet iman after that.So me and veve walked aimlessly after that.Many many things that i wanted to get.Hurr.Veve treated me to a strawberry cheesetart.Sweet,sweet veve.Heee.=) Bitched about *insertnamehere after that.Mahahaha.Was fun.Talked to iman after that about some stuff and went home.Slept and had to go to my auntie's after that.Melancholy the whole night.Pretty fucked up friday.

I guess the only reason why i'm feeling melancholy cause i'm insecured and paranoid.I can't stop myself from being that way.Have to reassure myself everyday.Sometimes i feel that it's fading away.Sooner or later,it'll go.Had a great talk with my cousin yesterday.In a way,she's right but there's something stopping me.I don't wanna let go just yet.I guess it's love? Hurr.It's love,make it hurt,It's love,it's love,it's love.Oh crap.

Happy birthday to TANYA! Happy sweet 16th! =) Enjoy your day while it last yea? I'll be here to listen to all the crap that you have to tell me.Hehh.=) love love.And also to that someone whose birthday was on 4th of may.YOU know who you are.Happy 19th.=) Ltrs.

Your favorite song was written but you'll never know

Monday, May 03, 2004

"You and i" without me.


*Incubus-Are you in?

Heys.Monday again.Hah.How i hate the starting of each week.GRR! Lessons were alright today.Maths,followed by geog.Recess.Then accounts.HAH! I think the paper is kinda easy.I should study harder.Hah.Manage to balance off my suspense accounts+trial balance.Well,i cheated la.But still! Manage to do ratios too.Wah.First timer please.Hurr.

Malay orals today.Wasn't that bad.I realised my malay ain't that good.Conversations were more like cikgu talking.Hah.I couldn't even remember what roads was! And i was totally craping my way thru'.Saying that 3 people died in the Nicoll highway tragedy and that 2 person died in the Ayer Rajah collapsed.Hah.I said..jambatan itu..err..ROBOH!.Off all the words,ROBOH! Alamak.Muni's the bomb.

Social studies was alright.Did pretty much of nothing.There she was teaching and here i am tatoo-ing nic's wrist.Hah.Aiyah she's just boring.Today wasn't a focused day.Half of me was somewhere else.I guess i should put all of this away.Don't plan on failing my exams again.Yea.Social studies class was cancelled too.

Canteened with nic,tan,sa,nor,mel,lin,feli,rach.Just talking and talking and talking.And we were suppose to study! Hah.Everyone was just voicing out their opinion on certain stuff.Tanya kinda joined in.Talk more and she left with her WongCoco jelly(hah!) to tear.Poor child that one.So we sat at the drain talking.We're going thru' the same stuff but of course it's a different senario whereby it's ------- and mine's jimmy.

So all of us went to the pond to talk.Hah.All of us were so depress so we ate WongCoco Jellies.Hahaha.Picnic please.Shared most of our problems.Well i knew lisa and nic did.Hurr.Tanya just kept on crying.Aiyohhh.Soon they decided to go home.=| Hah.Stayed in school for a little while more to complete my tuition homework and back home at 0445pm.Tuitioned from 5-7pm.Did a chapter of social studies already.3more to go.Plan to finish 2more today and 1 tomorrow and i'll be done.Yay! Then again,there's geog.GRR.

Incubus frenzy i've been in.Was telling debbie that some of the songs are so pretty.Heee.Make me go up up and away.It just lift's me up and their songs kinda puts me in a daze.How dreamy each song can get.Oooo.And not forgetting the smooth voice of Mr Brandon Boyd.=)).At least incubus is easing my mind.It's so nice when 2 people like each other.It gets me all so jittery and happy.Hahaha.How sweet things are being said to each other.When you're in a relationship,it seems so different.No more sweet stuff.Yea,there is still but so little.

Our late night talks have become more stagnant and still each night.Never like before where we use to say so many sweet things that made me just fall asleep smiling.Maybe it's me.It's that time of the month again and yeps,square one to me being pmsy+emo.I shouldn't be thinking to much now.Ltrs.<3

And no this day,these deepened wounds don't heal so fast

Saturday, May 01, 2004

Tin cans with strings attached to you.


*The Ataris-Saddest song


Heys.Been quite awhile.English&Malay paper 1 on thursday.English was okays.Report writting and the advantages and disadvantages of overseas study.Relevant and in point.Malay letter writting was a give away.Did the same topic for formal letter but i didn't remember the format so i did the informal letter which i did not really understand.Compo did this contunue the story thing.Was pretty simple.Hope i'll be able to pass.

Paper 2 yesterday.English was a killer.The paper was really difficult.The whole class was complaining either there wasn't enough time or that the paper was difficult.It sure was.Malay paper was also difficult.Some words i never heard of before.Was just whacking everything.Bullshitting my way thru' the paper.Compre was bloody shitty.Everything was in your own opinion.Screwed ah.

Was suppose to head down to yishun to see jimmy but headed home instead.Doctor diagnosed him with dengue fever.Effects will be seen in 3days.That is,if he's infected.Got pretty pissed cause i sent a msg and he didn't reply.Up till today.Oh well,i'll just let it be.Shouldn't be worrying to much.Guess he isn't too cause he's having the time of his life at east coast doing god knows what.

Talked to lesbian girlfriend after that.Got influenced by her.Hahaha.Yes,yes we sang THE MOFFATTS and kept on saying that how DAVE was oh so cute and she told me her fantasy stories about them last time.Mahaha.Pretty amusing.Well,at least that got me laughing.Hurrr.

Today was abit productive.Had tuition.Did maths and stuff.Before that i did a wee bit of social studies.Plan to finish everything by tuesday so that i can do my geog.Humanities.Argh! I have alot to study actually.(i realised) Maha.I should go start now.Ltrs.

We want more than this world's got to offer