Chelsea.

0615am.wake up call at 0700am.School.Assembly.Class.Ching chongs.Recess.Bio.Concluded that Mrs yeong was a racist.(heh).Slack.Maths.0145pm.Trained to city hall.0330pm.JIMMY.JIMMY.JIMMY.Lucky plaza.Laksa.Far east.Star bracelet.Rhumba frap.Wrote a song.0600pm=home.Dropped off.Hugged.Home alone.English&Malay paper 1.Revising SOON.I miss my garage band king.=(( Ltrs.



I scream your name at the sky,until I lost my voice.

C'mon,c'mon.

Heys.Hmm.Slack weekend.Just did maths and more maths.Yeps.Other than that it was sleep.Miss nic's comfirmation.I'm going for sammy's one next! Haha.They all looked so pretty pretty.=))

Yesterday.School was fine? Yeps.Got lectured in the morning from Mrs loh.What's new.Class.*yawns.Class is getting hot and sleepy.Heh.Stupid wheather is really being such a bitch.Sa didn't come so didn't had to keep on turning to talk.Hah.Had meeting with Ms chua after school.It was better than i expected.Me,being the blurrest didn't understand her question and i said that i wanted to fail my n's.Wahhh.Good ah.

Was suppose to have social studies class but juliana couldn't make it so back to the canteen to study with sam and all.Sasa came.Sickly as ever.Heh.Studied abit,slacked ALOT.Stupid nicolette sagaram! Couldn't study cause' she was being like a spasm child.Hahaha.Went home at 0445pm for tuition.Finished at 7.5msgs on my phone.4 bad news.Sigh.Went to go cut my hair.I'm missing it now.=(( Simpang for dinner with my hildya and my parents.Ate till we all full full.Hurr.Back home at 1030pm.Phoned till midnight.

Ahhh.Today isn't a good tuesday.Jinxed more like it.Sitting next to tanya now.Arranged in index order already.Yuppers.Pe first period.Played captain's ball.Failed 2.4 runs.I swear i'm not gonna re-take it.This is what living like a bum does to you.Lazy lazy.Didn't have the mood to do anything after that.Celebrated joanna's birthday during recess.Cake was good.Bio after that.Me and tanya all set to play bingo.Nic and sam joined in.Made a stupid mistake and that lead me,nic,tan and sam out of class.Mrs yeong was being unreasonable.At least we did half of the work right.Well,standing outside class was kinda fun la.Hahaha.Nic always wanna make me laugh my balls out please.Hehh.She just wanna rubbish.Heh.The rest of the day was okays.Accounts 'test'/revision was crap.Mental block.

Staight home after school.Too tired.Planned to study but i slept instead.Heh.Dream,dream,dream.=)) Had this weird dream last night.Nightmare to me? Maybe.Heh.Dreamt that this old,long hair crazy guy came chasing me.And when he got me,i suddenly woke up.Got abit frightened at 0400am in the morning.Wanted to call jimmy but was scared to disturb him so i spent the whole night up.Stupid,I know but i'm still scared.Before this dream i had another.About the k-twins.=)) Hahaha.KhaiS,khaiS.

Physics test tomorrow.Heading to town with jimmy after that.I wanna go eat laksa.Budget eating.Yepps.Exams' in 2 days and i'm going out tomorrow.Wahh.Good ahh.Hmm..Guess you thought i've forgotten all about you? Nah.I'm wondering how you are and stuff.It's been a while.Ltrs.

Note to self*STUDY STUDY!

I wish the sun would hide its head,so I could watch you dream some more

If i could find you now,things would get better.

[five words that sum you up for today]: tiring,sleepy,bored,aching,fucked.
[jewelry worn daily]: None.But earrings at times.
[wallet]: Topshop.
[coffee]: ? errrr.rhumba frap?
[shoes]: RED shoes.
[cologne/perfume]: raulph,romance by Raulph lauren and Ck be.
[clothing you have on]: minnie mouse pjs.

Mixed:
[wishing]: for him to come and the stars to shine.
[after this]: eat and eat.
[talking to]: no one.
[fetishes]: SHOES and STARS.***
[some favorite movies]: lord of the rings,save the last dance,walk to remember.
[something you're looking forward to]: meeting him.
[last thing you ate]: hashbrown.
[something you're afraid of]: dying.
[some favorite foods]: hah.i'll flood this one.
[something -or someone- you wish you could understand better]: myself? haha.
[miss someone you haven't seen in a long time]:yepps.Jimmmyyyyy.=(


Do you:
[like candles]: yuppers.
[like company]: yea.
[believe in soul mates]: guess so.
[believe in love at first sight]: not really.
[believe in forgiveness]: yes.
[want to get married]: yea.
[want to have kids]: nah.
[ever want to adopt kids]: nopes.

in the last 24 hrs have you:
[cried]: yups.
[bought something]: mushroom swiss.
[sang]: yups,beat your heart out-the distillers.
[eaten]: yea.
[been kissed]: nahhh.
[felt stupid]: Yea.
[wanted to tell someone you love them, but you didn't]: i did.=))
[talked to an ex]: nah.
[talked to someone you have a crush on]: noppers.
[had a serious talk]: yups.
[missed someone]: Yeps.
[hugged someone]: Ya.
[argued with a parent(s)]: Not really.
[dreamt about someone you can't be with]: yea..


social life:
[best girl friend(s)]: debs,sam,sa.
[best guy friend(s)]: ? haha.
[boyfriend/girlfriend]: silly jimmy.
[hobbies]: eat,sleep,tele,go out,ogling,taking photos.
[pager/cell]: cell.
[are the you the center of attention or a wallflower]: wallflower i guess.
[car you drive]: i wanna have a beetle!
[would you rather be with friends or on a date]:both.i would like to know my date's friend and vice versa.
[job]: ? student please.
[like being around people]: depends on who.


personal:
[who is your role model]: is brody armstrong counted? heh.
[ever liked someone you can't be with]: yea..but i got someone who wants to be with me now.Good ah?
[ever wanted to get revenge on someone cause they hurt you]: hehh.yups.
[cried over the opposite sex]: yea.
[your favorite physical appearance]: hair oh hair.
[are you happy with yourself]: nah.
[what plans do you have for the future]: pass the exams and get into the poly.
[who's your most trustworthy family member]: none.
[deep secret]: aye.what dumb ass qns is this.
[embarrassing moments]: ahahaha.so many.

Hello wellos.Was bored.Well,saturday.A bored one.Too tired to head to holy family to see sharon's comfirmation.Sorry sharon! Oh.Sorry deb.Played you out also.Heh.The week's been okays.Had pft on wednesday.Passed all.Thanks muliana for the help.=)

Thurday was okay too.Lesson as usual.Was aching all over.Heh.Tutorials was fun.Was laughing the whole time.After that headed to the canteen to study.Did maths and we talk about WET WET.Hahaha.What sia.Sa wanted to eat pizza after that.So we ordered.Heh.We were eating secretly cause we aren't suppose to bring outside food into the canteen.Heh.Went home at 6 after making fun of people.Hah.Studied abit and tried to finish our anniversary present but i couldn't.Damn.Talked to jimmy after that.That fella never fails to brighten my night up.=))

Didn't want friday to finish.Had our 2.4km runs yesterday.Hope i pass.I don't wanna retake the test in school but i think i failed.Oh no.Heh.Sa almost fainted.Heh.Poor child.Didn't bring her pump pump thing.Yea.Headed to tampines to eat after that.Got home at 8pm.Was already aching.Walking has become a chore now.Heh.Talked to jimmy for awhile and we both put down to sleep.

Had tuition just now.Was suppose to head to debbie's house to go dye our hair but am too lazy to move out from the bed.Heh.Woke up and slack.Yea.After tuition slacked with my cousin.Talk to her about jimmy and stuff.Heh.Update her about my life more likely.Yea.

My whole body is fucking aching.Ughhh! Debbie and me suppose to go to yishun today but nah! damn.Heh.Ohhh.Heh.Its khaiRUL's birthday.So yea.Happy birthday =) I'm aching and i havent bathe since morning.Good ah.Ltrs.

everything's gonna be alright

The ever passing moment.

//A pictures worth a thousand words
But not worth the words I need to hear
I MISS YOU SO MUCH THAT IT HURTS
And tonight, I wish you were here with me
So I could make you see
The stars, they lay across the sky so perfectly
They remind me of
All the times, when we used to sit underneath them,
those summer nights
And fall in love

Its not alright, it's our last night together
I won't give up, I can't let go, of you.
I can't let go of you.

And tonight, I close my eyes and dream that she he
is still the one, laying there beside me
I'd walk a thousand miles
I'd swim across the sea
What do I have to do, please just tell me//

Ahhhh,BLISS.=)

Somewhere in september.

Heys.Bah.Not a good sunday.My mum shouted at me cause of the handphone bills.She said that i'm abusing it and blah blah blah.Yeps.And announced to the whole world making it seems that i'm such a bad daughter.Ya la.I know i am.Bleahs.I don't wanna care so much.So yea.Maybe she's gonna take away the phone.Damn.Oh well,whatever.

Yesterday was orals.Was okay i guess.Reading was jerky,picture was crap,conversation was dumb.All of that was okay to me.Heh.Hope i'll pass.Bedok Macs for sam,muliana and me.Haha.Been a long time since i ate breakfast there.Heh.Sam was taking photos of herself! Hahaha.What sia.Bumped into rejini after that.Been ages since we saw here.Heh.Primary school days please.Yeps.Went back to school to wait for debbie.Asked her along to the pirates audition.

Went to city hall.Waited for them to come.And they came in a BIG group.Was abit shocked.Heh.And jimmy made his mohawk.Hehh.Was scared by ALL of them.Heh.We were already late for the audition.Saw imran.Exchange smiles.Heh.Yeps.In the end we took a cab.Yana,fiza,debbie,me.Heh.4 taxis.Yeps.The place was at katong and we headed all the way to city hall.Silly.Heh.Eurasian Association House.The room was SUPER small.The horns was like squashed up.Heh.Lucky debbie and me weren't inside.Was just out with some of the others watching.It wasn't that bad.Only the horns pitching was kinda err..bad.Yea.

Went down after that.Some fella wanted to talk to them so deb,me and din was at another table.Heee.DIN! He's so cute.Wanna pinch him like crazy.Hahaha.Yea.Then we saw ceramic circle! Oh my!! Debbie and i was fainting.Hahaha.The khaiS were there!! Hahaha.But debbie was really going hysteria.I didn't cause jimmy was there.Heh.Aiyah.Their just nice to be obsessed about.Hee.The k-twins.*screams.And i saw my auntie and uncle.Was hiding.Hope she didn't see me.Heh.Went home after that cause i hit my curfew which was at 2.Heh.Slept thru' the whole of yesterday afternoon.Celebrated my brother's belated birthday after that.Msged jimmy after that.Heh.He said something sweet that brighten up my whole night.=))

SIGH! Dread going to school tomorrow.Accounts test tomorrow.Studying for it now.Still got loads of filing to do.Damn la.Stupid accounts.And there's tuition tomorrow.Bahhh.Should quit my whining and get back to studying.Ltrs.

you lied,and cheat and steal

This is not an exit.

Heys.Been a sleepy day.Spent half my day sleeping.Slack day today.All i did was sleep.I think i'm dying soon.I can't breathe properly.My nose's stuck and my chest hurts everytime i breathe.Have to do something bout' my nose.It's been irratating the hell outta me.My tummy hurts.Too much of PE.Heh.I'm pennyless.I have no money left in my ezlink either.I need fucking money.

I've been grouchy.I feel insecure.Paranoid.Whatever it is,i'm just not feeling me.Everything's different.Ever since sunday.Kept on thinking about times spent.Mostly about everything.Really having this emotions all choked up in me.Guess there's no one out there who really understands me.Maybe i'm selfish and thinking about myself but..I hope together forever doesn't end.I don't want this to be goodbye.Ltrs.

will you be excepting my apology?

An elf and his zippo.

Heys.Suppose to be gelare day today.Now tuesday ain't gelare days anymore! No time nor money for gelare eventhough it's half price.Damn.Heh.Hmm.School was okay today.Didn't get back our progress card cause Ms lim didn't come again.And the relief coudn't find the cards.And i only gave mine back last week.Gees.Heh.Ms chua came and talked to us.

Pe was tiring but pretty contented with myself.Managed to run 4 round without walking.Haha.Actually it was suppose to be 5 rounds but..cheated.Heh.Then we had shuttle run.That Ms chiang or whatever her name was,was torturing us! Run so many times.I swear i could have just fainted.Heh.Free period for english.Trash out session with the class.Muliana and me was on powder frenzy.Hahaha.We were putting powder everywhere cause' we didn't wanna be sticky.Waddahell.Hah.

Deb got kinda pissed during recess cause' this AH LIAN was just fucking staring at her for fuck reason.And i got pretty annoyed too cause after recess she was just staring and pointing at our table.Stupid cina farts.(no offence.i'm not a racist.heh.) Called *him after that.*He's sick.Heh.Poor fella.Anyways,bio was sleepy as usual.Just wanted to sleep i swear.But managed to revise some work.Yeps.Last 5mins all of us were sleeping.Heh.Malay was fun today.God knows why.

Another hour of free period.Thought that all of us can relec one corner but Ms chua came and we had to do our mindmap thing.Yea.Accounts was the usual.Heh.Don't understand what she was trying to say but who cares la.Hah.Bio tutorials after that.Had fun in the commerce room.Haha.What sia.Debbie was lame as ever.Heh.Spotted a pigeon's nest outside the room.Everyone was kinda amazed.Yea.Amazed over a nest.RIGHT.Haha.

Deb came over after that.Just slacked,ate lunch and use the comp.Maybe heading to yishun to see the pirates jam tomorrow.Hah.Not sure.Depends on the time.I hope they'll make it earlier.Heh.Anyways,ltrs.

going up,going down, sometimes I feel the same way as you do

By the end of the day.

Hellos wellos.Heh.Yea.Rock out weekend.Well,not really la.But have been going out since friday.Heh.Headed down the yishun on friday.The whole train trip was dumb.Hahaha.My lesbian girlfriend was fucking funny please.We were trying to be RUFIO and LIARS' ACADEMY! wanna strum our imaginary guitar to all their songs.Hehh.What sia.Yea.Was supposed to meet them at 0430pm but we reached there at 0530pm.Yes,yes i'm late.Hah.Met up with Jimmy after that and we headed towards yishun park.

Wasn't a great place actually.Reached there and first me and deb walked around.And got lost! And there was this pervie! HAHA.Wanna wink and wave at us.GO AWAY! Hah.We ended up some place else.Heh.What sia.Got back after that.Play and learn for awhile then it was total slacked session.Heh.Was just really quiet and stuff.Too tired.Left at 0900pm and got home at 1045pm.My mum was nagging.HEH!

Went for band on saturday.Was fucking sleepy i swear.Heh.Most of the parts weren't there and stuff.So it was boring.Went home and napped after that.Was suppose to follow *him and his band for jamming but it was all the way at yishun! Too lazy.Called debbie and we headed to town.Far east and walked around.Met up with *him after that.He was with saini,din,khai,imran and some rasta fella whose name i don't know.Haha.Made our way to taka to slack.It was 3hrs of PURE slacking.Hah.Wasn't the best time of our lives but we had fun.Heh.

The KHAIS were suppose to come! but,but,but they didn't in the end.Me and debbie was so ready to take their photos.Haha.What sia.Then imran was such a nut.He was singing to rufio.He's lyrics is the BOMB! YOU'RE GRACEFULLL! YOU'RE GRACEFULLL DOWN AROUND ME AND IN MY EYES.YOU'R LIVELY! YOU'RE LIVELY!! WHAT SIA! Hahaha.That got me and debbie laughing our asses off.You're lively when it's suppose to be lovely.HAH! Hmm.When home round 10:00pm.I dunno.Could have just sensed that everything wasn't right.We said our goodbyes and i went home after that.Pretty pathetic.Got home and my mum was nagging her lungs out.Hahaha.Just whatever to her la.I cannot be bother anymore.Didn't have the mood.

Sunday's have always been mundane.So yea.Had class then went home and napped.Woke up with a msg.Was fucking hurt and i started to cry and cry and all stoned and cry more! I guess some of you might know the reason but yea.But things got better towards the evening.I'm glad that everything was cleared up.Just don't wanna loose *him again.I'm happy the way things are.I'm happy with spending time with *him and his friends.Their just wacky and they do the dumbest things.Hahaha.Yea.It feels good to be loved.=)

Today was just super slack day please.This whole week has been.Ms lim didn't come again today.So we had 4 free periods and we all just slacked.Exams are in a few weeks.Hah.Good ah.Heh.Had band after school was alrights.Taught the sec1's by myself today.Justine didn't come.Had an hour of combined and went home.Gonna get back our progress card back tomorrow.Ahh.Shit.Anyways,ltrs.

another life not worth living in masquerade

Warm October nights.

Hello there,the angelS from my nightmare.I MISS YOU.I MISS YOU.Heh.It's been quite some time since i blogged.Too lazy actually.Heh.Everything's fine i think.Schools' been okays.From monday till yesterday we all had prayers and stuff cause mr quah has been hospitalised and his crtically ill.Poor fella.Eventhough he insulted us and stuff,just feel sad for him.He'll hold on.I'm sure.

6 free periods yesterday.English,Geog and Social studies.Catched up on my beauty sleep.Haha.Did maths tutorial work.Headed towards tampines after tutorials.Wanted to get guitar strings to make some stuff.Yea.Ate lunch then went home.Went home,slacked and played with the sax.Hah.

Just had tuition.Heading down to the all famous yishun park later.Heh.Gonna session with the pirates.And debbie's gonna learn ska ska ska.Hehh.=) Anyways,ltrs.

Remember how you gave me shit
and I made lemonade out of it

One for the kids.

Heys.Hmm.Today was fucking draggy.Lessons starts early causing all of us to get hungry even before recess.3hrs of pure studying.Heh.Social studies was slack.Didn't even do anything.Talk,talk,talk take pictures.Go toilet.Take pictures.Heh.Was really bored.Day went fast after recess.Tutorials after school.Was okays.Preparing for standard test on mondays.Distance,speed-time graphs.UGH! Hah.Nic was doing all the work.Copied.Lunched at Tampines after that.This is where my supposedly good mood was changed.

Was walking to Long Johns.Didn't look infront when walking.So i bumped into this fatty lady.I said sorry.This fatso wanna come and tsk me.PLEASE!.Just wanted to slap here there and then.Its as if i bumped into her THAT hard and i didn't say sorry.At least i had the decency to say sorry.All she can do was tsk.Stupid beeyatchh.Hope she dies of fatness.FATTY.(No offence to you people out there.)

Then my mum.Singtel bill came and had to pay another extra $40plus cause i keep on calling out or something.So she was making such a big deal out of it.Have to go settle the bill myself now.Good ah? Then my brother kept on saying serves you right.You use.you go pay.He should just keep his bloody mouth shut at times.Irratant.Felt guilty cause i showed *him attitude.I have a big attitude problem.GRR.Another day of school.Finally friday's here and there's band tomorrow.Good ah.GOOD.Ltrs.<3

Debbie and Muni! =)


We were both 16
And it felt so right
Sleeping all day, staying up all night
Staying up all night