You said you never really felt a thing,

You said you didn't like the way I sing.

*My precious-Astrid.

Heyho! Silly internet explorer is being such a retard.Heh.Anyways,weekend had been pretty much fun,fun,fun! Hmm.Friday had accounts paper1.Dunno a single shit.Had jamming in the afternoon.Queenstown ah! Hehh.Played well i guess.Had to leave after that.Mum was being such a annoyance.Sucked up to my dad so that he'll let me out the next day.Hah.

Well,the gig was alright ah.Crowd wasn't that crowded but it was ok.The amps cocked la.Halfway playing letters to you,the guitar no sound.PFFRT! Fucktard shit.Yea.The rest of the bands were great.Yepps.Haikal's band played alexisonfire! I like ah.This is a 44.caliber love letter straight from my heart.\m/! Hah.

Some stupid pantat think they were damn godly and wanted to fight.That was KHAIRUL.Ex-pirate.I mean it's bad enough that he hates them or whatever but to insult the pirates is just to much.Was just asking him to get lost.He was just making a clown out of himself.And debbie used to like him! Like wtf?! Hahaha.Anyways,pirates did great eventhough they didn't have much time to perform.

Pirates was last so me,deb,siti,dani,zul,nihaad cleared up the stage after that.Lots of rubbish and all.Chairs and all was scambled everywhere.Hah.But we managed to clear it.We had pile up too! Haha.Poor siti.Piled up on her and i think nihaad's head hit mine.Madness please.Had our dinner there.Then we ask eddie and del to join us.SO debbie was telling us jokes which nobody laughed at.Siti,del and eddie left to go to far east.Dani crazy la! she rolled down the hill.Hahaha.Then we met them at the busstop.Oh eddie! i like eddie la.Then i sat on his lap cos no space.HAH! He has a gay crush on zul.HAHAHA! Well,still short of $250.Hehh.Some assholes wouldn't pay up.Ugh.

Dropped at far east.Bumped into those yishun 'rockstars'.Look at us like one kind sia.Yeps.Went to see wheather khai there.Not there ah! Heh.Hugged eddie ah! And del and everyone else.Pffrt.Trained down to esplanade with zul and dani.Hehh.Oh wells,met zad then.And saw rese and went home.Dad angry with me ah.Lecture me from tampines all the way to marine parade.

Sunday was fucking lame so whatever to it.Heh.Hmm,monday is always emo days.Pffrt! Had physics/bio prelims today.Guess it was okay.Should've study a little harder.HEH.Its over anyways.Yeps.Went to tampines after that.Got all so emo and stuff there.Planned for creative comp.Hehh.Went home.

Tomorrow the rest are going tonning.Dunno if i'll be able to go for dinner since my dad is angry with me.I'll beg.Hah.Sorry to clls people if i asked some others along.I gurantee that they'll be loads of fun.With dani+siti+zul.Hehh.I'm being so deprieved of love. =( heartbroken ah.Everyone likes DANI! Hahaha.Why doesn't anybody like me,i don't understand?.Ltrs.

demagnetise this horror act

I'm stuck in ways of sadistic joy,

And my talent only goes as far as to annoy.

*Incubus-The warmth.

Hello wello! Prelims have just been oh so bad.I don't think i'm gonna pass 3 subjects.HEH! My mum has been really annoyning and irratating.Oh god.I wish i could just slap her.Argh! Past few days we have been helping nihaad with the gig.Finding for venues.Hah.From polys to parks to NUS.Hope we'll get republic poly.Well,had accounts2 on tuesday.Just terrible.Hah.Everything was just wrong.Went for jamming after that.It was bad alright.But we had fun in the room.Honeystarrs are a must have in the room now.

Yesterday had geography elective.I actually studied! Hah.But i didn't complete section A due to time constrains.I spent like more than 30mins on section B cos' the allocation of marks was more.Heh.And i just wrote crap.There goes humanities.Went home straight after.My mum nagged at me cos i didn't finish the paper. @^&##$#! Ohh! I passed my malay ah!! GOOD AH! I don't think it's a c5.Hahah.A grade higher.Better than nothing! Nyenyenye!

HAPPY 16TH SAMMY!

Sammy's birthday today! Hahah.Wished her at 1200a, yesterday ah! Hah.Anyways,had maths paper 1+2 today.Paper 1 was such a kinda difficult.Paper 2 was okays.But i lost 5marks cos' i didn't do one question.Stupid drawings.Hah.Went to sammy's house after the paper.Sam,rach,tan,deb,sa,fel,lin,geri.Haha.We had lunch there and we took lots of photo.Haha.We were trying to pose differently.Madness.Hurr.Watch teevee and then slacked.Haha.Oh,we had brownies too.Sam! Hope you like your present.Espeacially squeky.Hee.I love all of them to the tiniest bits.=)

Next tuesday we'll be going for dinner at fisherman's village.With the most beloved,CLLS! How i love them all! Might be tonning too.Hah.And on wednesday me and tanya are going on our photography quest.Gonna take photos.Not sure where.Anybody else who would wanna join us,please tag the board or text my phone.The more,the better! I hope my 128mb memory card may work by then.

Accounts1 tommorrow.Why bother?.Gonna trim my back tomorrow.Hope it'll turn out fine.Last paper on monday.Bio/physics.Yay yay yay! Oh wait,N' level starts the week after that.Crap.Hehh.Ltrs.

Help me to dream these dreams because I don't have a clue

Down at the beach where i met her,

She picked my nose, I felt better.

*Watashi wa-The wrong kind.

Heys.Bleahs.The whole week has been fucking shitty i swear.It's just so,so shitty.Thanks to THE LOVELY teacher.UGGGHHHHH! I screamed at my brother and mother that day.Its like tag team okay.2 against 1.Pussies.

Had english paper 1+2.Manageable.But i screwed up on paper 1.Was suppsoe to write a formal letter but i went to go write a report.And after everything,i cried at my own stupidness.UGHHH! Compo was okays.Was kinda difficult because i didn't know which want to go.I did this question:Explain how and why you are interested in a certain kind of music.Kinda easy to write cos' there was more things to elaborate on.And i said i was interested in ska.Wah.Good ah?! Hah.

Paper 2 was okays.Wouldn't say it was that difficult nor it was that easy.They had this passage about identical twins.Hahaha.Made me smile while reading it.Hahha.Finished it on time also.So yeps.Hope i'll be able to pass this shit.UGHHHH!

Went to slack at the canteen after school.Did a wee bits of accounts and i went opposite with sam to eat.Hahh.Policeman and us just do not go.Hurr.Ate quite alot and back to school for band photo-taking.Hehh.Had a quick chat with sir.Syf last year i played baritone.And next year he wants me to play somemore.SICK UH.No wonder my site-reading damn slow.The notes are just so low and boring.BOOMP.BOOMP.BOMMP.UGGGGGHHH.SICK LA.

Fucking frustrated right now i swear.My MOTHER is such a whore i swear.I can scream out loud okays.UGH! I was at school the whole time and she thinks i was out the whole day.Then she blame my friends.Eh,what has my friends gotta do with this shit.Fuck la.It is just because of that fucking phone call.I HATE HER.(The teacher that is) And the worse thing is that she can suck up to you the next day.Like what the fuck? Really.Annoying.And crescent girls is just another fucktard school.(siti,nihaad,you know what i'm driving at) OH MY.THIS WHOLE WEEK IS JUST SO JINXED.

Accounts paper 2 tomorrow.I will study the format and then it's geography.Malay prelims result tomorrow.Think i'll get another C5.Oh wells,why am i not surprise.Laters.

makes me wanna hurl,fucking preppie girl

Breaking my back just to know your name,

Seventeen tracks and I've had it with this game.

*The get up kids-Better half.

A pictures speaks a thousand words.

I was bored.Please laugh away.

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Why do people move on so easily while some others struggle so hard just to move on? My heart literally ached.It's crying,because it's longing for what used to be,dreams aren't what they used to be.I thought i was the one,but i was wrong cos' he's already left..

Help me through the hopeless haze

Scream loud scream sayonara,

Sweet josephine will you follow me home?

*Coheed and Cambria-A favor house atlantic.

Heys.Hahh.Said i wouldn't update but i did ah.Stupid week i tell you.Ugh.Thanks to that certain teacher who just had to call my mother up.My mum is just so..annoying right now.GRR! Damn that teacher.Die!

Went to school with sandals.Ugly sandals.Then ms lim asked what happened.So i told her la.People stepped on in.Then i dunno who went to say that me and debbie went to the moshpit and got ourselves hurt.Like wtf.Annoying bacins okay. Went thru' our social studies paper.Think i'm gonna fail.Hahh.Didn't know what i was writting.After school went to nic's house.Played with her kitty.Haha.Then we went to whitesand's magic wok.Ate till' we were full.Came homr and slept.

My mum came home and lectured me.She said i lied to her.Since when.NEVER! And she's forcing me to eat ginko pills for god knows why.As if it'll help.Then she was saying that next week my exams,better pass her the timetable and all.She took away the guitar okay!! Now i can't even play.Pussyface! Still,i have the phone.Heh.Freedom all gone.And guess what,it's only me and debbie who got called.Like what the fuck? She said i was dreaming in class and my work are not up to date.I think there's others in my class who are more lazy than i am.And oh come on! As if she marks the work we do.Where is our overdued long compo we did? Our geog workbook was with her since last year and we only got it back last 2weeks.She just wanna find fucking trouble i tell you.

I think she called out mum cos' of the moshpit.It's like exams are coming and we're going to all of this instead of studying.I mean..our problem right.As if we're your daughters.And whoever said we went to the moshpit.You people DIE! we got called cos of this shit ok.Thanks ah.UGH! It's fucking irratating to be conntrolled.I want the guitar now.=( I miss BAND! i miss my section.I MISS BARRY HOT SAX! =(( i miss my juniors.SIGH AH!

I found out i got bruises on my hand.Thier ugly.Hehh.And my leg too.And she was trying to fucking suck up to me and debbie just now okays.I feel like kicking her face! i wish i could! SLAP AH! Went to veron's house to pratice just now.Hahaha.Got all the songs.Yay! I hope my mum would let me out on the 28th.Thanks to that biatch.Thanks for helping me lose my fucking freedom.You will die in hell.Ltrs.

-=THE Wasped Tour=-

11.30am: scape

11.55am: munchies at 9

12.20pm: bismuth

12.45pm: 4th avenue

1.10pm: the usual suspects

1.35pm: absent without leave

2.00pm: isolation tragedy

2.25pm: no better than you

2.50pm: 20dischanger

3.15pm: play doll maniacs

3.40pm: fingers gone cold

4.05pm: a common identity*

4.30pm: mistaken pirates*

[* = time slots may be swapped.]

Rules for the day:

1. No smoking on sch premises.

2. Avoid molesting or raping any one of the school girls

3. No booze on sch premises.

4. Dress decently.

5. Don't kick anyones ass. [No fighting]

6. ENJOY! and bring lotsa ppl and money to donate.

Ticketing:

$2 at the door.[and u get to watch THIRTEEN BANDS!!]

Venue:

The Mini Forum

Crescent Girls' School

357 Tanglin Rd

Directions:

By mrt: Get off at redhill

take 132 from opposite

get off at the next stop.[it's across the rd]

dear god, i don't feel alive when you're cut short of misery

Like a tiny grain of sand,I'm insignificant

Who is a foe, who's a friend, and who pretends.

*Tsunami Bomb-The invasion from within.

Heys! Hahh.I'm tired of blogging.Tiring uh.Hurrr.This week has been fun.Fun ah fun except for the national days holidays cos' i stayed home! Ahh.

Wednesday

School was fine.Had briefing about the exams and all.Lisa was being uber spastic.HAH.Spasm child.Yea.Lessons as usual after that.Not much lesson exactly cos most of the teacher weren't around so we studied.(Ya right!) Hah.Unplanned jamming.From yishun.Halfway then went back to bedok.Madness.Hahaha.Anyways zul came all the way here.And we jammed properly ah.Cleared russian roulette.Zul good ah.Hahah.I'm happy with everything.Yuppers.=)

Thursday

Social studies prelim.Just wanted it to end badly.Whatever i studied for didnt even appear.Didn't had time for structed so i crap my way thru'.Just wanted 0930am to come so that i can stop writting bullshit.Hahh.Had lessons as usual after that.During maths we had free period la.Then me and deb had pile up session.WAHA.My tragus bleed like crazy and debbie's knee got scraped.Hahaha.Then after school all of us head to the airport to eat.And debbie wanted to start a moshpit in the middle of the road.Crazy ah.Anyways,after the airport we went home.Went out to meet veron after that.Salvation army to find for a collared dress.Don't have uh.Braff.Hehh.Slacked the whole day despite the malay papers the next day.

Friday

Had malay paper 1+2.Paper 1 was quite easy i must say.I like compos.Makes you mind go wild.Hurr.Paper 2 was shitty.I doubt i'll pass this one.Whatever la.Haha.Went home to slack.Out again to meet debbie's for audition.Hahh.Wasn't planned cos we weren't sure but in the end we jammed.Yea.Got lost at commonwealth.HAHA.Pretty dumb.Finally got to the place.Saw familiar faces.Got imran uh! Your graceful,your graceful,your lively,your lively! Hahaha! Funny ah.His band also playing.Waited for zul to come.Went in.Saini said,'this i gotta see'.ARGH! hahaha.Yea.He was nice yesterday.He helped us with the amps and all.Siti SCREAMED ah.She and saini screamed for us.Hahah.It was good la.Have our songs all ready.Just have to jam it! Orite,orite babeh!

Saturday

Mocks.Maths paper 1.Hahah.Lazy to do okays.Did abit and don't wanna do anymore.Macs for breakfast.Met clinton to discuss about the december gig.Hah.Sounds fun.=) Yea.Went home for tution.My cousin was so sweet.She gave me $10 to go to the gig.Hahah.Got ready and all.Met debs. and veron.Hahh.Got there by train and met siti.Taxied to NUS.Quite a few bands played already.So we just sat down and chilled.Siti pulled us all the way infront just to see ana.Hahh.They were good.Hah.Then pop whizzee! Skanked ahh.And my precious.Debbie that biatch.She kept on pushing me into the moshpit okay.My shoe came out and they saw my socks and some fat ass steped on my little toe.DIE AH.Pain like anything uh.Hahh.Rushed home with debbie and veron.Hah.Sorry siti we left early! Hahh.My pantyhose just wanna tear you know.Think i skanked and moshed too much.Hahh.Cheapo stockings.

Today

Gonna send my cousin off to canada.Have to be at the airport at 0430am.Early sia.Will go for class.And the come home and sleep and then do homwork! Yeaaa! I'm sleepy and my mum's saying i'm listening to crazy songs.Sheesh.

Anyways,please support our gig.

-=THE Wasped Tour=-

11.55am: munchies at 9

12.20pm: bismuth

12.45pm: 4th avenue

1.10pm: the usual suspects

1.35pm: absent without leave

2.00pm: mantitot

2.25pm: no better than you

2.50pm: 20dischanger

3.15pm: play doll maniacs

3.40pm: fingers gone cold

4.05pm: a common identity*

4.30pm: mistaken pirates*

[* = time slots may be swapped.]

Rules for the day:

1. No smoking on sch premises.

2. Avoid molesting or raping any one of the school girls.

3. No booze on sch premises.

4. Dress decently.

5. Dont kick anyones ass.[No fighthing]

6. ENJOY! and bring lotsa pple and money to donate.

Venue:

The Mini ForumCrescent Girls' School

357 Tanglin Rd

Directions:

by mrt- get off at redhilltake 132 from opposite

get off at the next stop.[it's across the rd]

So just come and support okays! Won't be updating till some time.Till then,laters!

Wish I could disintegrate like a fading dream

And I heard you tell all your friends,

That you couldn't wait 'til it's through.

*AntiFlag-A new kind of army.

Heys.Pffrt.Something's wrong with blogger la.My entries are all in chuncks.Hehhh.Anyways,it's been awhile since i blogged.Too lazy/busy with stuff.Haha.With what,i have no idea.But i've been pretty tired lately.Hehh.

Hmm..National Day Celebration this year was kinda dull and mudane.Wasn't really a celebration.The band didn't even play.Just normal marching in the hall and then we sang all the songs.Talk about being patriotic.Hehh.The 2nd half of it was memorial service.They showed slide shows on Mr Quah and all.Then they read this poem 'The dash'.I cried.PFFRT! Hah.Was all sad la.After the service went to go spray my shirt.Yellow checks.Hehhh.Thanks DENISE!

Bras basar,orchard mrt to meet Mr indie boy,lucky plaza to eat,far east and then heeren.Thought i'd never go to heeren again but we did.Hah.I think they're trying to commercialise punkrock or something.All the warped tour cds were on the recomended rack along with matchbook romance,from autumn to ashes,taking back sunday,A7x and more.Just walked away uh.Haha.Went to cine after that.Goodness.Filled with school kids.PLENTY ah.Walked to taka to find diaries.Didn't get far.Then headed back to far east.

Was resting our feets when we got there and we got free mocha frap somemore uh! Haha.Didn't spend a cent on starbucks.Hurr.Then boy came to work.Friendly fella.Haha.Then 'hey! mr bassist look at me!' was working too.So we went out to fag.Hahh.And debbie has the most lousiest lighter.So we ask one of the twins.Hoho.Bliss.Met adi after that.Haha.We were stealing his badges.And he noticed! Damnation.Wait till wednesday,gonna get a badge maker.Can't wait,can't wait! Hah.Went home after that.

Saturday was boring.All i had was tuition.Heh.Glued myself to the computer and teevee for the rest of the day.And prelims is just few days away.Slap me please.Hah.Yesterday went for jamming.Me,deb,ben.Played russian roulette.Guess it was quite okay la.Abit productive? Haha.Just that i didn't sing properly.Heh.Went back to debbie's to slack.Watched cartoons.Hah.Went up to her room and crap around.Read the rasta book.Hahahah.SUPER funny.Brought it home.Was asking people wheather they wanted to watch fireworks,finally got veron.Hah.Went to her place for dinner.

We brought lisa(ron's sister) along.Hah.Just bitching in the train.Hoho.We couldn't even walk through city hall.So crowded i swear.Walk thru' the cathedral and thru' memo.I think we missed the fireworks.Hah.And there was so much ching chongs.Think they had some concert.Hah.Walk to the end of the river.Hahaha.There was this couple.They were getting on it sia.The guy's hand was in her skirt.PFFRT! I mean get some secluded place la.Strolled back and went home after that.

Suppose to have tuition but my cousin cancelled it.Hah.Super tired.Auditions next week.Not even prepared.Bleahs.Prelims also.All not prepared.Grr,I CANNOT stand superficial people! Why are they acting so fake?! UGH.It's annoying with a capital A.Anyways,I dreamt about the boys last night.Hehh.Eventhough everything is gone,memories they'll keep.Ltrs.

When you get bored waiting for trains.

And those angry hands,they won't understand

There is hope for us,

There are constants that we can't define.

*Keane-Bedshapped.

Heys.Pass few days have been..dull.School seems lifeless.Monday wasn't a good day.Assemble in the hall.Mr Lim cannot do public speaking for crying out loud.He is horrible but i guess we should give him some credit for standing on stage and humiliating himself.Heh.Watched Princess Diaries after that.Hee.Mr rooney.=) Social studies,recess and then accounts.

Whole school called to the hall.Finally they broke the news.Our dearest teacher passed away.Pretty sad for everyone.Some cried,some shocked.Kinda expected it.Not in a bad way.He's not suffering from all the pain already.Went back to class for emergency home room.We sat in class from 1245pm-0145pm.Miss lim cried.Some others did too.Although none of us got him for PE,he was still dearly to everyone.No one is gonna stop us from wearing our shorts low now.Sigh.St.Anthony's Canossian Secondary is much more different without him.

Yesterday was tiring.Hah.Study,study,study the whole day.After school,headed to the airport with Jo,Sharifah,Fel,Sa.Hahah.Had fun in the train.Lisa was being such a retard okays.Spasm child.Heh.Took the skytrain to Terminal1.Foodcourt for lunch and then Bk to study.Did quite abit ah.Went home at 0600pm and i was on the phone with Mr indie loner boy.TEEHEE.

Wahh.Today morning was horrible! Had this terrible stomachache.Heh.Went to the toilet like 32943times.Hahaha.Spot test for accounts.Capital vs Revenue expenditure.Cme was fun but i didn't participate cos' of the tummy.We had to come up with a country with the prime minister and all.Haha.I'm in the Ministry of Arts.HOHO.Pc was free periods for the malay girls.Went down to study but we ended up talking about after N's.Heh.Did crossword puzzle for english.So difficult.Hah.It's to widen our very limited vocabulary.Hehh.Whitesands after school and home!

Dani's got this student awarenese thingy at school and she asked us wheather we would wanna jam at her school.Like gig.Hah.Auditions next week.Super.Can't wait,can't wait.Prelims are next week.Fast ahh.Haha.Ohh.I chopped my hair on monday so it's shorter now.Hehh.And daddy promise me my emo specs at the end of the month.Anticipation.Till then,ltrs.

Sammy and Me with shorter hair and emo specs.=)

Only the end of the red will show you my blueside

To break these endless lies,

Secretly she cries

*Radiohead-Karma Police.

Heys.Bahh.It's been few days.Blogging is so tiring nowadays.Hah.I'm too lazy to update.Blogging is like a CHORE.I'm such a whore for saying that.HAH.Pffrt.

Monday was like any other days.Tuesday was emo day ok.I cried in the toilet.I'm always crying.Ahh.Crybaby! Hoho.Whatever please.Wednesday,everyone was in a tamagochi(?) craze.Everyone wanted one tamogochi.HAH.Its fun la.But i don't think i'll ever buy it.Heh.Yea.It was slack day on wednesday cos we only had accounts and malay for lessons.Maths and english was free periods.Thursday also.So had many free periods.Prata after school with nic,deb,anna,tanya.They all just wanna tamagochi.Hehh.

Jammed after tutorials on thursday.It was okay la.Only that we didn't play what we wanted to play.Next week,RUSSIAN ROULETTE! Hah.Walked home alone after that.Sad ah,sad.Yesterday was okay.Ran 2.4km.Doubt i'll pass.Why i care.2.4km run can go suck tits for all i care.Pffrt! Dad fetched me home.

Mocks today.Geography.It was alrite.Tampines for breakfast.Walked around and went to the jamming place to see haikal and his friends play.Hah.Wahh! Saturday got alot of weird people ah.Hah.Then there was this girl,bassist for mantra.She was nice.Ask us to come for girl fest and support them.Heh.Bumped into weiny too.Went home after that.Again,i walked despite the aching legs.

Next week we'll be getting a long holiday.Hahh.National day celebration and all.Whee! Friday's halfday.And after all that holiday,prelims start.Super fast.Pffrt.Oh no,oh nooo.Hah.Just now me,tanya and debbie walking around metro.We played with all the toys there.And we are gonna save for a barbie.=)

Can't wait for all the major exams to be over.Got so many things planned.Hah.I wanna go make tee-shirts.Hah.Lots of them.Heh.And the forming of a ska band.Hah.So physced.Heh.Ohh,last time that song about khai,my friend made a song outta it.It sounded good.Hoho.

I still feel oh so emo.Pffrt.I feel detached from the world.I was a loner for a whole week.It feels good,at the same time,lonely.I dunno.This whole week has just been alot of thinking.Just pure thinking.And dani told me that trumpet girl and guitar boy are together.So once again,i'm betrayed by those i trust.Sigh.Ltrs.

je manque vous aime

Go figure.

why do you keep it up when we both know you won't manage?

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