There's no going back.

Heys.New template.Hah.Sam likes it cause it's nice? Hah.Stars oh stars.=) Yeps.Anyways,the day was okay today.Dreaded going to school cause i was tired.Yeps.Hmm.Assembly in class today.Sa came.She look so sick.Never seen here that way before.Haha.Her eyes so swollen somore.Poor child.-Huggies.=)

Hah.Debbie was telling me that the sam guy didn't reply her the night before.So i was like okays.Then when i came back from malay room,she down there grinning at me.Haha.'Muni guess who msged?' Haha.So yea.Was grinning all the way during geog.Ahhhha.Debbie think she so smart,invited him to go slacking with us tmr.Haha.What sia.He said he's playing in a gig.Then we asked what band.Hah.And he said shoesize9.Yeaaaaa.Dumb bums.Hah.Pe was alright.Lazy to run la.Hah

Accounts was..okays.Then deb down there telling me don't be sad cause he's attached.HAH.Am i sad? Hurr.Nooooo.Better still KHAI.Maths was alright cause managed to do all the sums.Hurr.Yea.Assembly was such a waste of time.Heh.About the school emerency pratice crap.Heh.Stonning at their faces.

Band today was okays.Haha.Everyone seem tired.The tenor wasn't loud cause 1 tired,1 sick.Hah.Yea.Woodwinds sectional.Yeps.Did the 3 southern Vignettes and Broadway! Hah.I swear i hate braodway.Hate 2/4 timing.Cause' it's swing.And i got solo! I think? Hurr.Yea.Went home with justine.

Flaggie day tomorrow.Deb said that she wanna go to the gig and go support sam.What sia.Hahaha.I'm not going to pay 5buckers just to watch him strum strum.Somemore wanna go in in school uniform.Hah.Yay.Saturday tmr.Brother coming home tomorrow.Nooooooo.Hurr.Suppose to have conference with mr sam but he's outside.Noooo.Hahaha.Debbie so cute.When he said that he was attached,she went.'Oh No!' Haha.

Had conference with prisca and deb.Well,i wasn't suppose to listen la.But yea.So i just kept quiet.Debbie!! CHUA is one BIG asshole.He's one MOOTHAfucker okays? We will go find guys that have hair that falls on their faces and guys that have lip piercings and eyebrown rings.I bet CHUA don't have that.Cause he ain't cool enough! Hurr.Little 2 faced fucker faggots.Hah.Angry with those ah-bengs for messing around with debs.

Band tomorrow too.Noooo.1hr of it.Haha.I think most probably sectionals.Heh.Yeps.Okays gonna go hog the phone.=)

//This time I think it could be perfect
But you'd push it away
I came here today with a purpose
Should I try or just let it go

'Cause these things I'd like to ask you
Are things I can't explain
Or should I keep your glance outside the porch last Saturday

Should I have succumbed to your courtesy
I could see you were trying to get my attention
But I pushed it away

This time I think it could be perfect
But you'd push it away

Tonight it seemed suddenly perfect
Still no promises made
The balance of power was shifted
Were you trying to let me in
Or was I trying so hard
That all my confidence was lost tonight
Confused and regretful I cracked
Swallowed it back
And left with no spine intact

Maybe we were meant to see what's right
See how this ought to be
Just a taste of life to see what's right
You made sense out of me
What a shame that we're slipping away now
I'm going away now
Off to see what's out there
'Cause you're all that's here for me//

I feel I'm falling down,
Cause you mean much more than a friend
And you took my heart again.

Bye,bye beautiful.

Heys.Super tiredness today.Tried not to sleep during all the class but it was such a bore i swear.The rain wasn't helping.All of us were just sleepy.Heh.Yeps.Physics was a bore i swear.Had to go lab today and we sat on the benches.I was half dying.Bored like anything and the way Mrs boo was explain.Myyyy.Then she called me cause she thought i wasn't listening when i was.Was just stonning at her face.=|

Maths was okays.Got picked on during accounts.Stupid suspense accounts.Screw it i swear.English was abit entertaining.Was pronoucing words the wrong way.Ahaha.And telling racist jokes.Hurr.Yea.Stayed in class till 230 to do homework.Yeps.Was suppose to wait for nic but dunno where the hell she go then i spent the afternoon with adelyn.Yeps.

Went jamming.Hah.I didn't have the mood.Nothing was right la.Songs were screwed.Everything went wrong.Haha.Deb spent forever tuning.Nic,alison,chantel dunno doing what.I was stonning.And the amount of matnation.There were some.I mean a cute guy.Hahaha.Debbie got his number.She's still telling me he touched her phone.Just whatever la.Haha.Yea.Then she told me in the room got hotter guys.Hah.OKAYS.I mistook someone for someone.Look damn alike.Went home after that.The bloody bus apek was being gay.He didnt' let us come out from the opening door.The bus was packed full with people.How to squeeze sia.Haha.Managed anyway.Hurr.

Left with maths and 1 more geog article to finish up.Heh.Think i'll do it tmr morning.Too lazy and tired now.Where's my bed? Finally it's friday tmr.Yay! =) Dad not coming home till monday.Hmm.Still not sure about saturday.Have band and i'll only be released at 1030.Have to report to the school at 12? Dunno wheather from 1030-12 would be enough time.Yeps.We'll see how.See you online or msg me or anything la.Not having a phone is shitty now.Phones are a necessity now.Heh.

Okays.Think i'll pack my bag and go sleep.Msg pple and think.American Idols is where they showcase losers.HAH.SHE BANGS SHE BANGS.Mahaha.Woo dang bang.Ltrs.

Shidah:Hmm.What tickets you talking about? The plain sunset one? It's at Substation near city hall mrt.Heh.But i doubt there's still tix.When i bought mine,there was only 30left.Hah.But i'm not going to chingay eventhough i have tickets.Haha.Lazy to go ah.Wanna go slack at starbucks.Hurr.=) Good luck anyway.

//tell me what you thought about
when you were gone and so alone
the worst is over
you can have the best of me
we got older but we're still young
we never grew out of this feeling that we wont give up

here we lay again
on two separate beds
riding phone lines
to hear that familiar voice
and pictures brought from memory
we reflect on miscomunication
and misunderstandings
and missing each other two
much too without you, let go

we turn our music down
and we whisper
say what your thinking right now
tell me what you thought about
when you were gone and so alone
the worst is over
you can have the best of me
we got older but we're still young
we never grew out of this feeling that we wont give up

jumping to conclusions
made me fall away from you
i'm so glad that the truth
has brought back together me and you

we're sitting on the ground
and we whisper
say what your thinking outloud

tell me what you thought about
when you were gone and so alone
the worst is over
you can have the best of me
we got older but we're still young
we never grew out of this feeling that we wont give up

we turn our music down
and we whisper
we're sitting on the ground
and we whisper
we turn our music down
we're sitting on the ground
and next time i'm in town
we will kiss boy
we will kiss boy

we got older but we're still young
we never grew out of this feeling that we wont give up//

-BestOfMe]]TheStartingLine.

Push me away, make me fall,
Just to see, another side of me

99 Red Balloons.

Heys.Hmmmm.Yea.The day went by fast fast.Haha.Just like that.Nobody took my bag and sam's bag in the morning when it was raining.The BEAUTIFUL people.Hurr.Anyways yea.Sam's back.Lisa too.=) That 2 monkeys.Hurr.Yea.Assembly in class.Malay was okay.Passed physics test.Hurr.Smart ah.Hehh.Yuppers.

RE lessons was like slack period.I swear that mdm heng ka peng.Wahh.She was telling about me and lisa about copying.Lisa didn't want to use her own comp cause it was super dusty.So she wanted to share with me.Then mdm heng down there shouting at her.Ahehh.Then lisa cannot find anything so she copy from my paper.Then mdn heng still shouting at lisa.'Why you copy? You know long time a ago,a student copy.One copy another copy all copy' Damn naggy sia.Lisa was hell irratated with that old hag.Then we made fun of her.Ahaks.

Bio.Was damn sleepy.Ahaha.We were all in a riot against Huishan.Haha.Think she damn smart.Not even please.Yea.Haha.Deb and me was super quiet during bio.Ahah.Tiredness.Hmm.English was like confrontation session.Hah.Ms lim was like saying that we all so distracted la and blah blah blah and she said that 1mth pass so fast and all.Then she said.'Its only 4weeks and some of you have started vandalising your desk.Huh? Debbie,munirah and karen'.Ahhhhahahaha.Spent the rest of the time scrapping the writtings on my table.

Maths was alright la.Did questions.and more of them.Haha.Didn't get back our test paper.Hah.Yea.Straight home after school.Hah.Spent my afternoon sleeping and downloading stuff for my brother.Yuppers.

Have to get songs ready by next week.Seriously,i cannot be bother anymore la.So lazy to choose songs.And have to like play songs that everyone knows.Why not we play RED SHOES.Laddeeedarhhhh.Red shoes oh red shoes.Meant for muni's feet.And black shoes are meant for debbie's hobbit feets.Hurr.

I'm desperately broke.I really need money.Hah.Chingay this sat.Yeeeeeaaahaaaaa.Jiayi got tickets but of course,i'm not going.Haha.Gonna slack and starbucks as long as i like.Hah.Flag day this sat.Ahhha.Gonna slack ard.Hate asking people to donate money to that can.Hur.And it's at tampines.Rah.Of all the places.Why like that.Bahh.Gonna be a long day tomorrow.Heh.Nooooo.Accounts tmr.Screw.And theres so many newspaper article to finish up.Good la.Okays.Think i shall stop here.Ltrs.

//It seems like every day is the same
and Im left to discover on my own
It seems like everything is gray
and theres no color to behold
They say its over and Im fine again, yeah
Try to stay sober feels like Im dying here

And I am aware now of how
everythings gonna be fine one day
Too late, Im in hell I am prepared now,
seems everyones gonna be fine
One day too late, just as well

I feel the dream in me expire
and theres no one left to blame it on
I hear you label me a liar
Cause I can't seem to get this through
You say its over, I can sigh again, yeah
Why try to stay sober when Im dying here

And I am aware now of how
everythings gonna be fine one day
Too late, Im in hell
I am prepared now,
seems everyones gonna be fine
One day too late; just as well

And Im not scared now.
I must assure you,
youre never gonna get away
And Im not scared now.
And Im not scared now.

I am aware now of how
everythings gonna be fine one day
Too late, Im in hell
I am prepared now
seems everyones gonna be fine
One day too late, just as well
I am prepared now,
seems everythings gonna be fine for me
For me; for myself.
For me, for me, for myself
For me, for me, for myself

I am prepared now for myself
I am prepared now
and i am fine
again//

-FineAgain]]Seether.


I got that feeling like someone's standing behind me.
Oh yeah, I thought it might be you.

This is what leaving like this does.

Okays.I just typed out an entry then it disappeared.Fucktard la.This is bloody gay.Ahh.Heh.Anyways,deb came over today.She helped me tuned the guitar.Hurr.Then we sat around doing nothing.Yups.Hmm.Hah.She said the frontman from saves the day looks like khai.Not even la.Hahah.She and her cocked up eyeballs.Heh.Hmm.Yea.Nothing much happened today la.Usual stuff.Accounts test was the worst.I don't think i'd be able to pass.Hah.Hmm.Debbie spent her day yaking about chua and meeee..yaking about someone too.Ahaha.Argh.

My mum is really being such a pain i swear.So now it's my fault i didn't ask my dad for money.Then i'm not gonna eat for the whole fucking week.Not forgetting my bus card is running low.I need a sugar daddy desperately.I swear i'd do anything for money.Hurrrr.Been having an all expense paid recess by debbie.Feeling kinda bad.Heh.So ya.Okok.Think i'm gonna go pack my bags and go sleep and think and think.Screw everything.

//I'm singing this song while I'm sitting here, waitin' for your call
you know who this song is bout, its all about you,
you and your perfect smile and your perfect hair

The way you talk
The way you make me feel
It's the way you walk
That got my hopes up high, yeah

I think that you've got me thinkin'
that we could make it all the way, I think I drank to much last night
I just cant get you out of my head,
just you and your perfect smile your perfect hair

The way you walk
The way you make me feel
It's the way you walk,
That got my hopes up high, oh yeah

The way you walk, the way you talk
The way you are..just so perfect for me
your perfect smile, your perfect laugh
your perfect unlike me

I think we good to go So get into my car
we are perfect for each other, yeah
perfect , thats me and you both

this song that I'm singin' now, thats almost over,
that song was for you and me both, oh yeah//


I guess I like it when you smile at me

Dial 999 if you really want the truth.

Ladeedarhh.Too lazy to type.Day was okay.Super sleepy.Debbie was sleepy too.She slept super late.Me too.Hah.Yea.But we just keep on laughing and laughing in class.Accouts was alright.Ahh.Test tomorrow.Deb taught me abit.Left with abit of balance shit to understand.All those shit.Bahh.Whatever la.Hahah.I think mrs boo got pretty pissed with me and debbie.We kept on yaking away.Hurr.Then she said.'Munirah and Hazel'.Now who the hell is hazel.Hurr.Standard test was okays.English report writting.Had even time to write a song for maxxy waxxy.Heh.Iggy wiggy.Camy wamy.Hurrrrr.

Yea.Abit tired now.So yea.Just wanted to say i got my plain sunset tickets.=) Woohoooo.I'm the man,muni's the man! We were lucky cause they're were only 30 tickets left.Uh huh.Ron was kind enough to pay half for me.Thanks veron.=). No khai today.Was suppose to meet max but dunno why,eveything damn cocked up la.Yeps.Heh.All of us angry angry with maxxy waxxy.He thinks he's saxxy but he's not cause i'm miss saxxy waxxy.Which reminds me,i think i'm in deep shit.Hur.

Just keep on thinking la.About everything.Mostly about you.Cause now i think everything is wrong.And we know it is.I really feel guilty.I don't think saturday's gonna work out fine.I think we should just..stop everything.I want things to be right.But not like this.If it's the right way,i wouldn't mind but..you,her.Many years? you,me.only a year?. You know what i mean la.I don't want you to feel in between.I don't even know wheather you have or your feelings are sincere towards me.Hai.If there's anything you just msg me or something.But i don't think saturday is on.Maybe another time.Really am sorry.Ltrs.

//Someone don't care who it is
Tell me of your insignificance
I'm boxed up
Lost inside myself
Trapped in my own existence

Don't remember anything you said to me
Not that it would really change my mind
Never going to be who you want to be
Take you own advice this time

I've got something to say
Don't turn your head and walk away
This time you're going to stay
Don't turn your head and walk away

Somewhere don't care where it is
As long as it is far away from here
I'm changing and no matter what you say
You will never make me shed a tear//

-SomethingToSay]]BrodiePunk.

Wah,wah,wah,wah,wah,wah.Ben wah balls,wah,wah,wah,wah

Stupid over you.

Hohoho.Suppose to be doing my homework but waddahell.Can't be bother any less.Didn't bring home some books.Hurr.Accounts and english can copy tmr or something.Heh.Hmm.The day wasn't really productive.Wel,it wasn't productive for a fact la.Heh.Hmm.Slept early last night.Weather was nice and cool.Hah.

Class today.Haha.Was alright la.Was just stonning.And trying to keep my eyes awake.Hah.Yea.Walked home after that.Made plans to go and get shoes with deb but in the end didn't cause i was too tired and lazy.Hah.Lisa came over to pass me the guitar.I swear it's the most retarded sounding guitar ever.Heh.Breakfast for us.Went for prata.Hah.Didn't even finish.Was just telling her about yesterday and she was telling me about her adventure with karen yesterday.Haha.Damn dumb.

Took our time cause she was meeting clara later on.Towning for them i think.Heh.Back home at 1245.Slept my whole afternoon thru'.Was just tired.Hurr.Suppose to do malay but left my bookie underneath my table.Hoooo.I'm the best.I'm muni.Hoo.On the phone with debbie and max.Haha.Debbie and doug just rubbish la.Fuck la.My mother wanna come and scream at me now.What la.I swearrr.Bitch.Hahhhha.Heh.Okkkays.Time to go pack bag and sleep.Ltrs

I've been working for
Something oh so fake

Superman's dead.

Heys.Just came home.Towned with debbie just now.Hah.I'm just hanging out with her nowadays.Yeps.Hmm.Yea.Met her at tanah merah.Managed to get through my daddio yesterday.Told him was going to mal's place.Sorry mal.Just had to go out la.Prolly be like a moron if i stayed home.Yeps.Heh.Slept early yesterday cause i was super tired.Rained mokeys and piglets and donkeys today.The rain was just horrible.Lucky it got lighter at noon.

Reached town at around 2.30? Yea.Penin plaza first.Was suppose to find for BLACK shoes but in the end all the shops were close.Nooooooo.Hurr.Many matnation today.And rude boys too.Hahaha.And yea.Mats.Hurr.Cabbed down to far east cause it was raining like dunno what.Ate at long john's.Talked about last time.When we were sec1! Hahaha.So funny i swear.Hurr.Yep.Walked out.Saw KHAI.Mr starbucks.=D.Walked around far east.Deb wanted that belt.Haha.Found another stylo belt that i wanted.Hurr.Shall get it when i have the money.

Walked around finding for earrings.Didn't find any that i fancied.Heh.Walked round and round and we all got lost.Hurr.Yea.Then i just stared at the body piercing place.Nooo! Hurr.Went down to starbucks to chill.Hahaha.Spent like 5 mins talking cock there before ordering.Thought that khai would take our order but noooo.Haha.That same malay/indian fella took our order.We named him ali.Haha.Okays.Yea.Ordered then deb was asking.Is that khai? Hah.He said ya.Thats KHAIRUL the older one.Yeeeeehaaaaa.=) Yea.Saw mr brian too.He just keeps on staring at us.Haha.He made my rhumba.Hah.Khai was in the kitchen.=|.Yea.Just slacked la.Hahah.Debbie said something lame and she made me spit out my drink.Hur.Yea.Talked and talked till 5.30 then we took a cab down to tampines.Debbie think she damn smart.Go and say bye to all those starbucks people.Hah.I've like analyse both khai.I think both of them are kinda proud.And scared of us.Hurr.Yea.Saw wyn also.Hahah.She's so small.I feel like kicking her down the stairs.Hahaha.

Half of my money was spent on cab fare today.From far east to tampines.15.30.What sia!! Hurr.Wanted to get the bloody converse shoes but waddahell!! The shop wasn't even open.Bloody cheater.Hurr.Wasted money just hurrying there.Went home after that.The rain just got so heavy and heavy.Oh my.Luckily i was already at the bus stop waiting for bus.Reached home at 7.Yea.Slacking around now.Gonna start doing my homework pretty soon.=) I need motivation.Still thinking what song wanna play for the jive station shit.Hurrr.

Msg seekee just now.Everything's fine now alright.Don't worry about anything ya? Yups.Been doing alot of thinking since yesterday.I dunno wheather i wanna meet you next week.I don't feel like it.I don't wanna be in between.Yea.I know my feelings now.Its not like before.It's slowly fading off.I think i'm sick of feeling the same way.Bleahs.I'm just hanging on to something i know i can never get.Yeps.Anyways,ltrs.

//i'll let you in on how i'm feeling
you've got a lot of nerve
you'll get what you deserve
granted this feelings unappealing
i'm bitter, i'll admit
now i've gotta deal with it
just one more thing okay
it so sad to say, it's,

so sad to say
what we had has gone away
ya could say its sad
think of what we could have had

i'll let you out without resistance
parting this way is not,
the way we ever thought, in fact
i always thought we'd go the distance
but we went nowhere quick
so sad it makes me sick
just one more thing okay
its so s-sad to say, it's,

so sad to say
what we had has gone away
ya could say it's sad
think of what we could have had

my animosity has, got the best of me
it been feeding off of sadness deep inside that'll fade i pray
and in time it will i know
so far its fading slow
just one more thing okay
it's so s-sad to say, it's,

so sad to say
what we had has gone away
ya could say it's sad
think of what we could have had
so sad to say,
so sad to say//

-SoSadToSay]]MightyMigtyBosstones.

Drunks and children they tell you the truth,
That's what I am, I'm drunken youth

Another year off the streets.

Heys.Hmm.Nothing much happened yesterday cause i spent most of time just lazying around at home thinking and thinking and eating and sleeping.My dad was irratatting the hell outta me.Ugh.He was like waking me up at 12.30.Hurr.Okay la.I know it's late but like! Waddahell.i still feel tired.Slept late the night before.So yea.

Was on the phone with debs yesterday.She forever muni me then say chua chua.What sia.Hurr.Yea.Then was talking to this fella called khai but he wasn't the starbucks khai.Hah.I didn't feel like talking about khai the starbucks guy.I dunno.Don't like him anymore.Heh.Dunno ah.Dunno dunno.Anyways talked to khai till 4.Then off to bed.

Woke up early today just to make breakfast for myself since the rest didn't want to taste my cooking.Heh.Yea.Headed to debbie's house at 2.Was suppose to meet tanya but that girl wanted to stop at mal's place first so i went on my on.Yea.Just slacked around and did nothing.Played with the guitar.Haha.Doug was like playing the guitar for us.Hurr.Tanya,denise,mal and see kee came after that.All of us was just slacking around.See kee left for work.

We all were playing i never.Hahaha.What sia the game.Hurr.Hmm.Yea.Like that la.All the way slacking around.Haha.Mal's skirt was the best la.Damn short i swear.Hurr.Mal you too tall la.Haha.Then tanya so dumb.Hahaha.We were watching tele at her mum's room then tanya wanted to see the view la cause we could see tm.Haha.Then tanya thinks that the window was open.Hahaha.Then she hit her head on the window.HAHA.That was super dumb.Wonder why we didn't caught it on the cameo.Hurr.Yea.Debbie has a chikoo uncle.Hahaha.He was smiling at us when we were lying ard at the bed.Waddahell?! Hurr.Yea.Went home at 6.Yeps.Had fun la.Bbq at my house now.My cousins are all here.Hurr.She cries when i carry her.Heh.Yea.Feeling very drained out.

Dunno wheather i can go out tmr.Suppose to follow debbie go buy belt and black shoes.Haha.Yea.Told my mum but she ask me to ask my dad.Haha.Going to tell him i'm heading to lisa's house for open house.Hah.And it's like all the way at hougang.Heh.Thats far but who cares.Yea.Townning tomorrow.With no money! and no bus fare.Kill me please.I need money desperately.Haha.I wanna get shoes too.And a belt and earings and my sex bands.Hah.Gave 4 away today.2 to mal and 2 to denise.Hurr.I'm left with 8 now.Hehh.

Ohh.I wanna get a lip piercing.Initially.Then then then.Hahah.I was thinking how the hell am i to blow my sax if i'm gonna pierce it.Hur.Yeaa.Was telling veron that i like guys with eyebrown rings.Haha.Get an eyebrown ring and i'll like you even more.=) Heh.Yeaa.Hmm.Seekee was asking me today.What's the relation ship between you 2? Hah.Then i was like.Just friends what.Okok.The thing is now i dunno what those 2 have been saying to each other.So i can't solve it yet? Yea.Cause i dunno what she told you.Or what you told her.Dunno ah.Hurr.

Hmm.I hate the way you mock at me.Seriously,that day i was pissed.Seriously khai is just a starbucks guy and he his way out of my league.I mean you are too la.But.Aiyah.Its just so hard to say la.The feeling i have khai and you is so much different.Khai is just a crush.You..obviously more than a crush.Bahh.Why like that.WHY.Now i'm paranoid.Shut up la muni.Hurr

Okokok.Fine la.We'll just see what happens la.SIGH.Emo emo emo.The whole feeling is just super,ultra crappy la.Ahh.I have a friend.He just broke up with his girlfriend for more than 4years.She left him cause she went for someone who is better looking and cause she was sick and bored of all his crap.And they planned their engagement this year.Sad ah.Hmm.Hah.Commitment.So hard.I hope i'm not like that.Yes,first impression do counts.But one shouldn't be that shallow right.I don't wanna be like that.I feel so sad for him.Why why why.

i know im bragging around but yea.I still feel so sad for that fella.Hah.Anyways,ltrs.


//I am vision
I am justice
Never thought that I could love
Living in shadows
Fading existence
It was never good enough
Within the darkness
You are the light that shines the way
All trapped in violence
I can be the girl who saves the day

I'm there for you
No matter what
I'm there for you
Never giving up
I'm there for you
For You

Someone's changed me
Something saved me
And this is who I am
Although I was blinded
My heart let me find out
That truth makes a better man
I didn't notice
That you were right in front of me
Our mask of silence
Were put away so we can see

I'm there for you
No matter what
I'm there for you
Never giving up
I'm there for you
For You

Within the darkness
You are the light that shines the way
In this blind justice
I can be that man who saves the day

I'm there for you
No matter what
I'm there for you
Never giving up
you know it's true
You were there for me
And I'm there for you
For you
For you

For you//

-ForYou]]TheCalling.

So once again I swim In Reverie
without your love

Leave the light on.

Heys.Hmm.Happy Chinese New year! Haha.Yea.School was alright today.Hurr.Sam didn't come again cause the pain was pain pain pain.Hurr.Hmm.Yea.Crapped around with sharifah all.Till lisa came.Hah.Yea.After assembly went up to class.Got some donation card thingy.Then we all crapped around.Was playing with tanya's cameo.Hur.Sharifah so cute.Hah.We ask her take picture but last last never take.What sia.Haha.Then got the installation of class com thing.Yeps.Nic ask if we all wanted to play for the month of feb at the canteen stage.Hahha.And being the VERY KIND people we are,we agreed.Hahha.

Was choosing songs just now.Mostly blink.Haha.Dunno la.We were saying wanna play but no drummer.Ahahaha.Then we are gonna teach lisa slowly.Hurr.Went down to watch performance.Hahaha.Sec3 having agnes fans.Sec4 having joanna fans.Hahahaha.We down there shouting joanna!! Hahaha.Then kelly.'Joanna! Can see your underwhere' AHHHAA.Fine.Hurr.Damn lame sia.Hurr.Finished everything about 10.45? Outing with sa and deb.

We were suppose to go pick saga seeds then dunno what happened cause karen didn't come.Prata party today.I didn't have money you know.Hahaha.They were so kind to lend me coins.Hurr.Took the train.Me and debbie was on a mission.Ahaha.Finding guys with hair that falls on their face.HAH.And lisa and me was on a mission.Finding mobies.Hah.Dropped at orchard.Train packed like anything.Hah.And there was no CUTE GUYS! What's this la.So we walk walk walk walk walk to far east.Heh.NO KHAI!! Noooooo.Irratating bugger sia.He's always inside the kitchen! He should like go make rhumbas.Hurr.But we say the guy that was there yesteday.Heh.Yeaa.Showed lisa the belt i want.All of us was just crapping cause we were so poor to do anything.Saw shane koh after that.Hahaha.Called sam.Hur.

Walk all the way to heeren? Yea.Just to see the flesh imp fella.I don't think he's there.Cause all of them ugly.Hurr.Walk down to cine after that.L9 for us.Haha.Was walking walking saw tanya.Ahh.My long lost shister.Ahahaha.And mal too.Mal's super tall.Hahaha.Feel akward standing near her.Ahaks.Hmmm.On the way up up up say cheryl lek.Hahaha.She so cute you know.So small.Ahah.She was like 'Muni!' Hahaha.We all relec one coner at the bowling alley.Hahhaa.Debbie think she damn smart you know.Go and call maxxy waxxy.Haha.We were like making fun of him.Evil sia.Yea.Met him for awhile then i was like seeing his belt and he said fuck you? WHAT SIA! Haha.Still can remember lisa reaction on her face.Hahaha.So funny i swear.Mahaha.We were like max looks like err? Chameleon? Noooo.Iguana.Damn bad sia.

Ya.Then then we went home.Haha.And it was only 2? What sia.Fucking early.Hahahaha.Trained all the way to tampines with Wong.Wanted to buy some sauce for wong's mum.Hurr.Yea.Went home after that.Heh.Hmm.My dad was making such a big fuss about me coming home late.What sia.Not say i go where.Bastard bitch.Hurr.Was making template for veron.Haha.Think it's okay now? Haha.I guess.Yea.Slacked the whole day after that.Did nothing much.Hmmm.Wrapped up my companian.Now it's all punkrock.Ahahaha.What sia.yea.like rock on.\m/ Mahhahaha.Whatever to me la.Hurr.

On the phone with many people i don't know now.Should call up KHAI.Hahaha.Then we can conference.Ahhha.He's scared of debbie i think.Trying to avoid her.Haha.Yea.Hmmm.Okok.Go talk to her first.Ltrs.

//Last night I dreamt that you were here.
I looked into your eyes which remembers so glim.
Things were the same as they would before.
You had to stay as I walked out your door

Trapped in my thought on were you might be.
Wondering if you still remember me.
Now I left that town a couple years ago
but I cant explain how i ever let you go

The friend that was real.
Someone who never lied.
You always knew
how I felt inside.

Last night I dreamt that you were here.
I looked into your eyes which remembers so glim.
Things were the same as they would before.
You had to stay as I walked out your door.

The friend that was real.
Someone who never lied.
You always knew
how I felt inside.

you're lost somewhere (where could you go?)//

So I call you on the tin can phone.
We rendezvous at a quarter-two, and make sure we're alone

Best i ever had.

Heys.Hah.School was okays.Dunno.Was just looking forward to it.Haha.Woke up late.Kinda lazy to drag my ass outta bed but i did.Haha.Joycelyn came to talk to me today about what happened yesterday.I guess charlene must have told her.Bahh.Dunno ah.Barry i love you.Hah.That's why i'm gonna be stuck with you.I'm not gonna let tiff or yong cai play.Haha.Those 2 monkeys.Ahaha.

Homeroom was lame.Haha.They gave us some internet form shit? Hah.Pe was okays.Did the normal sprinting and we played rats and rabbits.Ahaha.Had geog next.Did the homework so i was being smart.All my answers all wrong.What sia.Haha.Recess.Didn't see Ms SLIPKNOT today.She changed her shoes.Hah.Bio was okays today.Wasn't really tiring.Heh.She didnt pick on me and debs.=) Malay was all right.Hahaha.Being in a small class is fun.Hurr.Social studies was..so boring i swear.We were watching this tape about POLITICS.Me and debbie laughing so hard cause it was professor singh.Haha.And his hand gestures were so funny.Hah.Lisa was sleeping.Haha.Poos child.Sleeping alone.=/.Hahahaha.But sa was abit dumb.She forgot that she wrote on her hand.So the ink from her hand all landed on her cheeks.Hahahaha.Was laughing damn hard.But nevermind,i still love her.=))

Accounts was okays.Understand abit? Was asking karen.Hah.Test next week.Nooooooooo! Hurr.Hmm.Was suppose to go to gelare at siglap but we changed our mind and headed towards town to see KHAI!! Ahhhh!! So we went.So happy you know.Thought could see him but but but!! NOOOOOOOOO!!!!! Ahhh.Why KHAI! WHY?! Hurr.So we went to gelare to have waffles.=) Walked around and we bump into chua and his botak friend.Hah.Debbie was like.'MUNI! CHUA!!' Hah.Yeaa.We walked past starbucks like 1983362829times.He's friend notice.Then he went to go tell the other fella!! Then the guy smiled at us.Ahhhaa.Called karen to sponser us.She bought some cheesecake.Then debbie was asking the fella.

Deb:Excuse me,is khai working today?
Fella:Ya.At 6.Err but which khai? Khairul or khairi
Deb:There's 2 khai? Huh?
Fella:Ya.Their twins.
Me:REALLY?
Fella:Ya.But khairi doesn't work often.

OHHH! THEY ARE TWINS!!! Ahhhhhhhhhhhh.Haahha.Okok.Muni happy.=)) I'm so happy.Hurr.I made a song out of KHAI somemore.Not the khai my ai ai.Hahaa.Yea.Anyways.Yea.He's working now!! Ahhh.Yea.Left town at around 4.45.Debbie couldn't go wandering around.Haha.Yea.Met sharifah and karen at city hall.Deb down there telling me about chua.Hah.CHUA AH CHUA.Hur.And she gave me that face.Haha.Hmm.Yea.Train was packed like anything.There was this 3 raffles girls.One of them looked like Mrs boo.Hah.Another one cannot tie her hair properly cause it was falling all over her face and the last one was thiking that she was miss intelligent.Ugh.I hate the intelligent one.When she talks,she gives you the tone that as if she knows SO many things.Rahh.Padahal only sec 1s.Puny kids.Whatever to them.Hurr.

Yea.Just got home.My brother's coming home today.NOOOOOO.Hahaha.There's gonna be squabbling tonight.Hurr.Sigh.I'm pennyless.Topped up my card just now.Have no more money left.Argh.Where's money when i need it.Hurr.I still can't find 100bucks from my hari raye packets.Screw la.I'm dead.Rahhh.Saw firdaus just now.Ahahaha.I remember him! Hah.I remember alot of people espeacially KHAI! AHHH.Actaully i dunno wheather he's Khairul or Khairil.I think he's Khairul? Hahhahaha.One's with spikey hair and the other has hair that falls on his face.AHHH! hurr.

Okok.Think i'm gonna go slack around now.Hahh.Tomorrow half day.Yay! Gonna go town again.Sa gonna find her anniversary gift? And me and sam are just tagging along? Don't really know the plans yet.Haha.Yea.Bahh.My dad just told me that my mum may have to go for an operation.Damn.Like i said before.everything is going wrong.Anyways,ltrs.

//Let me take this awkward saw
And run it against your thighs
Cut some flesh away
I'll carry this piece of you with me
Because all I can say tonight
is that I hate you
But it would be all right
If we could see each other sometime
If I could somehow make you mine
And if not I'll take my rusty spoons
And dig out your blue eyes
I'll swallow them down to my colon
They're gonna burn like hell tonight
Because you're beautiful
Just not on the inside
Light comes from within
And your beaming eyes don't seem so bright
My heart is on the floor
Why don't you step on it?
When I think of all the things you've done
Boardwalks and breaking waves
Made our Saturdays
I'd buy you lemonade right now
if you were here
But then I'd throw it in your face
And I'd listen to you cry
And I'd remember how I miss
our nights under ocean skies
You and I are like when fire
and the ocean floor collide//

-Rocks Tonic Juice Magic]]Saves the day

i hope to lose myself for good
i hope to find it in the end not in me,in You

Drunks and childrens.

Heys.Hmm.School was okays.Sam went home.She wasn't feeling good.Haha.Lisa was all alone today.Poor child.=) Maths was okays.Was in a good mood.Hur.Cause deb and i was talking about khai.She and her Khai my ai ai! What sia.Always stealing my guy.Hahaha.I wanna go see him!! Will go soon.Haha.Hmm.English was..Hah.Debbie telling me lame jokes!! Hurr.That lame shit.Recess.Did accounts.Didn't finish.Hah.Luckily mdm kee didn't go through.=) Hur.Hmm.Yea.Physics was okays.Hahahha.We were making fun of Mrs Boo.Ahahaha.Today she like angry.Hurr.Me and deb down there smsing khai! AHHHH! and he replied!!! He knows brian!!! Ahhh.Thai guy!! SAM! he's still working there.Ahhhh.Hurr.We went crazy.Hurr.Khai works there everyday!!! =)) Ahhh.Khai is mine!! MINE! Debbie.You go away!!!!! =))) Haha.

Was kinda happy cause I THOUGHT that i'd be able to go audition.But.Just whatever la.Brought cases up.Had to wait for the rest to come down and help me cause i can't carry barry myself.Hah.A midget's coffin.Hah.Yea.So set instru and all excited about auditions you know.But the bloody response was SUPER pathectic.14!!! Only 14 little kids turned up.Oh my.Anyways,So sectional leaders were suppose to go.THEN!! joycelyn asked for a tenor.Then that nosey butt when out!! I swear you know!!! SHE'S NO MORE ASL!!!! I'M the ASL.Waddahell.Was damn pissed with her you know.I mean like i already plan what type of juniors i want.I want one alto and one baritone.I want to play back bloody tenor.I want to find a TALL junior so that she can play.But lil' miss SMARTY PANTS went to go get a small one.!!!! I'm so angry you know.ARGH!! But it's just that she can't accept that she's no more ASL.She's so reluctant to give up that post.Somemore she's now in the band commitee.That's good enough already right?.Arghhh.Why like that.I'm gonna be stuck with barry.Fuck la.Ahhh.Whatever la.

Played broadway just now.I do not like broadway.The way its written is just shitty.Jack bullock.Ahh.Don't make me rhyme.Haha.Justine asked if i wanna come for auditions tomorrow.I was like why not you go ask Miss I-wanna-take-charge-eventhough-i'm-nothing.Ugh.Pissfying.Just so angry with the whole section.I'm gonna nominate her again as SL this time.-Roll eyes.Whatever.Whatever.Haha.Yes,i'm just over-reacting but i just don't like the way that she makes herself like THE BOMB.Like she knows shit about everything but knows nothing.She was asking justine what was E#.Then justine told her it was F.She down there 'REALLY?! REALLY?!'.Really your mother la.Arghh.Haha.I'm so angry with her.Why why.Hurrr.I feel like telling her.I'M THE BOMB.I'M THE BOMBSHELL!! HAH.But whatever la.I'll get over it.I'll get someone to play barry.=)

I wanna see KHAI! KHAI KHAI!!! Haha.I'm gonna make a song out of khai! Hahaha.No more red shoes.But KHAI now! Ahhh.Haha.Khai khai your my guy eventhough you have bloodshot eyes,you're still my ai ai,KHAI! Hahahahaha.Rhyming game.Ahhhh.I wanna go starbucks now! Finee.Hurrr.A little infactuatuation here.I miss khai.Cause he's my guy.Hai.Screw la.Hah.Tons of homwork to do and here i am blogging.Ltrs.

//I'm Sick of Smiling
And so is my jaw
Can't you see my front is crumbling down?
I'm sick of being someone im not
Please get me out of this slump
I'm sick of clapping
When I know I can do it better for myself
I'm sick of waiting
Sick of all these words that will never matter

I wire all these nerves together
Hoping for a chance to think on time
And I'm tracing over your letter
To see if your intentions are as good as mine

But you're getting worse
I swear it
It's hard to prove you're an understatement
You're getting worse and I know
That you'll be calling me again

I'm done with everything
That had to do with you
Don't worry you pictures are already burned
I'm done with new friends
Don't sell yourself short
You'll lose it in the end

I can't help how I feel//

-understatement]]New found glory.

Hey mom,there's something in my backroom.Hope it's not the creatures from above.

If we're fucked up,you're to blame.

Heys.Haha.First first.Debbie says hi! she playing the guitar for me.We're singing wonderwall by oasis.HAHA.*strum sturm.She says she love me too.Haha.And i'm teaching her malay.Hahaha.She playing fuck a dog now.But using a kapor? Hahaha.Was telling her kapur means chalk in english.Hurr.Okays.Enough about that debbie.

Had a really late dinner yesterday.Haha.Went to maks place for dinner.Hilmann came and was trying to sell some bed to my parents.Hahaha.My mum was just shouting at him.Ahaha.Yea.Went off for dinner.My dad is crazy.Asking wheather i miss my brother.As if that he won't come back for Chinese New year.Nonsense la.Haha.Bleahs.He was bring such a fucker faggot yesterday.Didn't let me sms you know.RAH.Whatever to that silly old man.Got home at 1.30? Was online then i logged off.

Had class today.Was okays.I swear learning arab is such a chore.I can't even write properly.Hahaha.My words look like some egyption wordings.Haha.Fine.Hur.Hmm.Yea.Got home ate breakfast,slack in front of the television and then off to bed.Hah.My cousin came to my house after that.Played with her.She's so cute.Hahaha.Sigh.Downloading my brother's jap stuff now.Hah.Faster faster.I wanna use my comp.Hurr.Yea.

Talked to benny just now.Kinda told him stuff abt re-uniting.HAH.Bahh.I dunno.Everything is a dunno state now.Fuck everything.Debs telling me that she misses khai.=\ She stole my guy.Hahaha.Now i have to go find a new target.All starbucks guy are cute.Well,most of them are? Hurr.Yea.She said khai never reply all her smses.HAH.We will go visit him one day.=) We were talking about blink 182 that day.Haha.Then we were saying how tom delonge rocks! Hurr.And how travis is the best.Ahaha.

Hmm.I dunno wheather my feelings for you are still there.I dunno.Hah.Like now,i don't feel anything.I dunno also what i'm feeling.Sorry about yesterday.Was just feeling a little moody.And you irratated the hell outta me.So i'm sorry for giving you some lousy attitude.Emo,emo.Crap.Yea.I guess what you said about 2003 passing by so fast was true.Hmm.You said that you thought that i would open up but i didn't.I guess i just can't.Maybe when we meet,we'll talk about all this.I'm also not sure about what you're thinking.You yourself don't open to me.I'm feeling so akward now.Bahh.The feeling i have for you now is just indescribeable.Maybe everything was just a..sigh.

Dad's going off on the next week.Dunno where's hes gonna fly too.But he'll be there till 1st.31st flag day.Hah.Took the afternoon shift.Hurr.Can go collect some money and go slacking somewhere.Morning gonna be free i think.Yea.Hmm.Blink's really emo.Hah.Looking at the lyrics now.Really nice lyrics..Anyways think i'm gonna go pack my bag and lay around.Ltrs.

//Here's a letter for you
but the words get confused
and the conversation dies
apologize for the past
talk some shit take it back
are we cursed to this life

Fuck I can't let this kill me, let go
I need some more time to fix this problem

I'm talking to the ceiling
my life just lost all meaning
do one thing for me tonight
I'm dying in this silence

The last star left in heaven
is falling down to earth and
do you still feel the same way//

//And I'll miss your laugh your smile
I'll admit I'm wrong if you'd tell me
I'm so sick of fights I hate them
Lets start this again for real

So here I am I'm trying
So here I am are you ready
So here I am I'm trying
So here I am are you ready

Come on let me hold you touch you feel you
Always
Kiss you taste you all night
Always//


Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am, I'm lost without you

The kids aren't alright.

Heys.Today cca orientation was alright.Sir didn't come in time to conduct.Hah.Was kinda angry first.But he so poor thing.Haha.Joycelyn told him at 845.He said we told him at 945.So yuxian conducted.Hah.Better than expected la.Haha.Yea.Then we went down to the canteen to just chill around.Yan Ying came back.Thought steph will be there but she didn't turn up.Yea.

Me,tiff and cheryl went up after that.Angklung was performing.Then choir,drama and all the dances and percussion band.Yea.Went up to play after that.Thought that i'd be conducting but kwek-t did it.Hah.Then the alumi band played and conduct.Hahaha.Yea.Was just dancing around with cheryl and chasing the sec1's to join band.Ahaha.Hope the auditions wound be alright.=)

Was dismissed after that.Had time to kill.Went home to take the letter,while debbie use the net.Haha.My mum was asking me to buy prunes for my grandma so i didnt know what she was talking about cause she spelt it as plume.Hahahaha.Debbie laughing like crazy.Haha.Went towards tampines interchange after that.Yea.Debs got her black dye.Hope this one works la.Hahaha.Went to tm.Deposited some money in the bank.There was this baby infront of us.So cute! Debbie first said that he look like a monkey but then i said he was cute cause he started laughing.Hah.

Went to go meet him after that.Walked to the interchange with madeline.Splited after that.Yea.Reached there.No one was there.Got kinda piss/worried.Dunno.Hahaha.I kept on calling debbie for no reason.Sorry sweets.I dunno.Haha.I hate to wait.Wanted to leave actually.Hah.Lucky he showed up or i would have left.Yea.Slack awhile and i was giving a fucked up attitude.Slap me pls.Bahh.I was getting pretty annoyed cause SOMEONE was being VERY irratating and i HATE to be irratated.Was sitting at the stair.Left after that.Couldn't be bother much.Send me to the bustop and i got home.

Chatted awhile just now.Off to bed after that.Silly debbie called me.She was talking about Mr nemo.Oooooooooohhhh.I should have gone to town!! Dammit.Then i slept.Called debs after that.Then she told me what!!! She got his name and number! Noooooooooooooo.Debbie! How could you steal tanya's and my man?! What is this?! His name is KHAI.Ahhhhh.I was telling debs that we all should conference!! Then i can get his bloody number!!!! Ohhhhh.Fuck la.Sounding like a fucking despo.I know.Hurr.But cause his cute and i've been eyeing him since last september.Haha.Debbie was like also going.'Muni!! He touch my phone you know and i tapped his shoulder' Whatever la! Hahaha.Angry,angry with you.HAH.

Class tomorrow morning then i think im gonna study and do bio.Haha.Monday and tuesday having audition.Really hope the response is well.=) Then we can have little juniors.Awww.Hahaha.Tiffy wants to come along in the room.Hah.Joycelyn too.Hurr.Bahh.Debbie told me that she'll give me his number when we all conference.Hell yea! =) I'm happy.She said that maybe he's scared of her cause he never reply any of her sms.Hah.You lousy la.I'm the bomb.You better give me his number.HAH.Bahh.I feel as if one by one,something is being taken away from me.Slowly,all of us are drifting apart.Crap.I wanna be re-united.Ltrs.

Do you care if i don't know what to say?
Will you sleep tonight or will you think of me
Will i shake this off, pretend its all okay
That there's someone out there who feels just like me,There is.

Lose it all.

Okays.Had mass today.Bleahs.Was super tired.And the space was so little!! I sat till my ass hurt like shit.Nehnels.Then there was the stupid teacher beside us.Waddahell.She down there if people talking she'll take her paper and roll and whack people.What sia! Wanna whack anyhow.Bloody shitter.Debs got caught for her hair! I told her already to go dye back black she don't want! Now she get caught she down there panicking.Hurr.

Pe then.Running around.Haha.That's all la.Then thought i could leave early to send my brother off but the hod didn't let me.Assholes! I didn't wanna take my maths test cause i didn't study.Haha.Yea.Hmm.Maths test was really very tricky.It was easy but mrs tay made it really tricky for us.So i think i'm gonna flunk cause of careless mistake.I finish quite early too.Haha.It wasn't a difficult test la.Yeps.

Reading after that.Was happily writting letter.Oh and mdm kee ask debbie to dye her hair jet black.Hah.She down there don't want.Protesting all the way.Hahaha.She was like 'i don't want! it's jet black.FUCKING BLACK!' Haha.Angry angry.Yea.Assembly was okay la.Went home after that.Took care of my grandma cause everyone was busy.My brother went ns already.Hahaha.So fast.He's 19 already.Hahaha.It's time he be slaves for the goverment.My mum said that he has to clean the toilet! AHAHAHAHA.Meaniee poo.

Tomorrow the sec1's orientation.Yay! Can't wait.=) Hope all those puny little brats join band.Band is good.Hahaha.Band is the best.Hurr.=) And am i suppose to go conduct for our section tmr.How to conduct sia!! Hope all 4/4 timing or not i'll just die.My conducting skills is horrible.Hah.They don't let me play bass for them.What is this la.Hur.But then again,i woudn't be tired.Haha.Conducting will just do.=) I am happy.Hur.

Hope we finish early tomorrow.I don't wanna stay long long.Haha.Gonna follow debbie buy her fucking black dye.Heh.Yeps.Gonna pass letter also.So yea.Ohh.We're gonna have a concert next year!! January.That's what tiffy told me la.Hahaha.I wanna have concert.Yayyy.=) Hur.Anyways,ltrs.

When I close my eyes
I remember why I smile

Place your hands in mine,i'll leave when i wanna.

Heys.Sleep early so wasnt feeling tired yesterday.Everyone came to my house.Hildya too.Didn't tell her things yet.Perhaps another time.Was on the phone with debbie and max.Yeps.Hmm.English was fun cause we did compo.Pair work.Haha.Debbie so lame i swear.We did malay culture.=) Yea.Then social studies.Was listening abit then i dunno.Hahaha.Physics! That Mrs boo made us do spot test.Haha.Was writting my lyrics out finish then mrs boo caught me.Oh noo.Haha.Told her i understand everything.As if muni.Hurr.Recess.

Tiffy told me stuff about that day.Oh myy.Hahaha.Was pratically screaming i swear.Yea.Rushed up and waited for mrs tay to come.Maths was fun today.I dunno why.Maths has been pretty good.Hahaha.I'm getting smart.=) Accounts was like fucking shit.I swear.I think i got the lowest in class.MUNIRAH! Hahaha.I know.I know shit about trading p and l please!! I got 3.5/19! Oh noo.Suppose to see mdm kee but i REFUSE.Noo.I don't want la.Was showing my black face the whole time.Lucky only 30mins oh i would have died.Geog after that.Getting pissed with my stupid hair.Now my hair like bunny tail! Nooo.I hate my pony tail.Bloody shit.

After school took a bus with debs to parkway.Saw max.Haha.His mohawk was okays? Hurr.Abit weird standing near him.Ahaks.Ate our popiah and we went to take a cab toward tampines.The stupid taxi driver so loud! Wahh.This hairsytle nice ah.Hoho.Crazy.Heh.Slacked at sunplaza.We were trying to find for mr and mrs cat! Cannot.And all the little pussies.Sunplaza cats are scaredy cats! Not gonna find the kitties anymore.Yea.Max thinking he damn cool.Haha.Not even la he.Left about 5.Kfc for me and debbie.Saw many cute guys at the interchange.Then we saw mdm kee! Nooo.Bloody women.Retarded ass.

Went home and slacked around.Grandma took out her eye thingy.yea.My brother's being such an ass.Don't wanna photocopy his army thing.He don't want me to go! Asshole.Hate him.Missing maths test tomorrow.Yea yea.=)Okok.Have to go.Study.Ltrs.

Your a few years overdue,what kind of role model are you?

Something i picked up from Sunplaza.=))

Science Fiction.

Heys.Am really dead tired today.I can just die i swear.My eyeballs are gonna pop out from their sockets anytime.And what's more.Homework to be completed.Bahhhhh.This is just retarded.Ugh.I don't even have the strength to eat.Haha.Yea.Woke up early to meet suzana to talk to her.It went fine.Stupid sa have to drag me in the morning.Going from class to class writting on the board abt some stupid costume.Heh.

Reading,then malay.Haha.I didn't know my textbook was a normal tech text.Stupid bookshop bloody hell cheat my feelings.Hah.Yea.Physics and then RE.Mdm Heng ka Peng was trying hard to explain but her english just sucks.Hahaha.Evil sia.i understood what she was saying.I think? Hur.Recess today was good cause it was snappy.Heh.Biology after that.Oh my.Could have just died.It was boring like anything! Mrs yeong with that long long scientific explaination and everyone was just sleeping.Hah.I was telling deb that we should name our band.VENA CAVA.Hahaha.She says it sounds indian.bloody racist.Hurr.

English we were doing some race thing.Heh.Then was maths.Was okay la.That mrs tay so lazy to teach make us do all the dunno what work.Idiot child.Hurr.After school helped the council people with the radio station thing then help band with our sec1 orientation gifts.Haha.Kinda nice also.Heh.Yea.Got home.Am really tired.Exhausted.Ahh.Die.Hur.My grandma so poor thing.She went for eye operation.No one gonna cook for us! NOOO.hur.Okok.I think i should stop crapping and start sleeping.And it's only 7.30.Nvm.Nite world.=)

To break out and cry, cause this has been,
the worst day of all, always kept it

Dismantle me.

Heys.Hmm.Am dead tired.Rahh.Yesterday was monday.It was okays.Band was okay.Actually band was the best part.Haha.Warm ups all and then we had rehearsel for the sec1 orientation.I think we played okay.Section solo was like shit cause u played terribly.Haha.It was so shaky waky! It sounded horrible i swear!! Nooo.Yea.Then we saw the rest of the cca perform.Justine got whacked by a saxophone.Poor child.Hope your eye is all right yea? =)

Finished super early also.Ate noodles and crapped with justine.Choir was so poor thing cause their conductor so firece.Like angry,angry.Haha.Yea.Went home.Did nothing much.Wrote a long letter after that.Was suppose to do karangan! But i never.Hahaha.N' level this year.So i was like laying around.Then i slept.

Late today.Rush,rush,rush.Haha.Lazed in school in the morning.Pe was tiring.I was dying!! Hahaha.So lazy.Hur.Run 2 rounds and i could have died.Hurr.Then all the runing around the tennis court.Heh.Yea.English was fun cause we did target settings.Heh.Then was recess.Yay! Hurr.We saw that sec2 girl.She wanna act only you know.Wah.Her shoe the behind she write SLIPKNOT.WAH.Damn rock on you know.-roll eyes.Suck up asshole.Heh.So debbie and me was dissing her.Haha.

We now got red badge wanna act big.Hahaha.But not so big.Haha.Yea.Anyways bio,malay,social studies and accounts.Haha.Gelaré after that.Yay!! Been craving for it since last week.=) Went with debs,sam,karen and shiqi.Met mal and tanya at the busstop so we went together.Hmm.The waffle was cheap.$7.80 only.Hahaha.Yea.Shep,tim and ben came after that.Very long story.Alot of things happened.Yea.Had a walk with tanya after that.She told me everything.Hah.Pity her la.Poor child-HUGS.=) Went home at 4.45 like that.Bloody hell.Mat-nation.There was 3.Hahaha.Trying to tsk tsk at me.And and and.None of them was good looking!! Haha.Ugly mats.Hur.Got home.Saw benny at 94c skating with hobday.Talk to benny for awhile.Glad skating is making him happy.Heh.

Yeps.Think that's about it la.I'm so lazy to type.Brother going away soon.Oh yeaaa! =) Ltrs.

Hungry eyes, they stare at me I know, I know

No one but myself.

Heys.Deleted yesterday's night entry.Shitty one.Yeps.Hmm.Not much to say actually.Just felt lke blogging.Trisha left yesterday.After she went in,i cried.And so did everyone else.Eventhough we've been thru' so much shit and stuff,i'll still miss her.Sam,benny and me were the last to leave.Oh and Bwee too.Just wasn't in the mood yesterday.Like everything was so really shitty.

Parkway before the airport.Took my specs,dinner at burger king and talked to see kee at pastamania.Yeps.After dinner me and sam just walked around.Then we sat at the water place there.Was really nice just thinking.Met benny and bwee after that.Was feeling fucking emo.Everything was crap.Cabbed down to the airport.Yeaa.

Think i'll stop.Cause there's alot of things i've gotta do.Anyways was playing with my mum's phone again.Hahaha.Ltrs.



I look retarded in this pic.Hahaha.Hildya and me.=)


Slightly bruised and broken with a head on collision

More noise,other disturbances.

Heys.Just came back from band.Band today was..okays? I was tired.We were abit short handed.The sec4E girls had pratical and casxn didn't come.Heh.Yeps.Went down,set chairs,stand and blah blah.Sir so IT-tech savvy.Haha.He used his pda to tune us.Hurr.No more tuner anymore.We use the pda.Hur.

Wanted to warm up but the PA system was really noisy.They were doing some Mic test shit.So we only started playing at 1015.Wasted alot of time la.Yeps.Warmups was like shit.Cause i was so lazy to play.Haha.We only played songs at 1115.Rahh.And the book was called,'5 minutes a day'.Wanna bluff us only.Heh.Tidy up dancing in the wind.Wahh.The amount of saliva coming out was alot sia.Was playing half way then the saliva keep on coming out from the mouthpiece.Eee.Heh.Ohh.We played smooth by santana too.Easy and nice song.While playing i choke on my saliva.Rahh.Hurr.

Cartoon after that.I think i need self-pratice.There's some part i can't play cause it's so fast.Site-reading abit bad la.Hur.Yea.Sir let us have break for 15mins but then he said to pack up.Hur.Yeps.Brought our cases down to the hall and packed.Met debbie after that.Went to go cut hair.Ate prata first.Yea.Heading to parkway later to collect my glasses and eat dinner too.Then sending trisha off.

Ohh.Conference with deb and hoggy that day.He's so cool!! Hahaha.Debbie keep on saying that max is hers'? She's crazy la.Hahha.Yesterday we were like writting notes to each other during accounts.Hahaha.And maths was really fun cause we were competing on who was the fastest to finish each question and i won! I'm so smart.=) Hurr.And debbie was so jealous cause max could play much much more better than her.Hah.I can't even play.I play sax now.Saxxy waxxy.Ltrs.

All i ever wanted,is all i ever needed is here in my arms

I suggest we learn to love ourselves before it's made illegal.

Heys.Ahhhhhh.I'm so so so tired i swear.Where's my bed? Hahh.Have to complete all the stinking homework first.Rahh.Hmm.Nothing' much really happened la.Yesterday was okay.Apart from the lack of sleep,everything was good.After school me and sam did geog in class.And i stopped half-way cause i wasn't in the mood.So we went for prata.Yeps.Went home to sleep after that.So wanted to cut my hair.So i did.At 9 at night.Hahhaa.I was that desperate.Haha.Now i look like i'm in the 70's.Trying to find austin powers.HURR.

Today,the day was super draggy.Can just die.Lessons were at 740.So it was english 1st.Me and debs were like just dying there.Hah.An 1hr of it.Boringg.Then social studies too! and Mrs boo thinking she damn smart you know.Take a broom and use it as a ruler.Ahhhh.So retarded.Recessss.1045 recess is so shitty.Canteen so packed.Bahh.Lucky mrs boo gave us early recess.Heh.

Maths after that.Mrs tay didn't pick on me cause i was smart today.Answered one question and she was off my back.Hah.So nonsense i swear.Anyways,the accounts.Ahh.No test today.Hurr.Then geog.Did so many discussion dunno what shit la.all i know that i was super tired.Left after school with sam,geri and debs.Went to go meet trisha.She was already there with benny when we came.Hah.Was fighting non-stop with mr emo.Hurr.He thinks he knows everything.HAH.Was getting tired after that.Me and debs were getting abit..irratated? Hurr.Duno la.went home at 5.Yeps.

Got articles to do.Nooooo.And the holiday homework.And english and bloody accounts.Hahh.So lazy to do.And there's BAND tomorrow.Kill me please!! Oh oh oh.I saw that bloody sec 2.I swear i want to slap her friend.Wanna fucking roll her cina fart eyes at me.Pardon me,i'm not being racist.But that whore thinks she's fucking big.One of these day i'll slap her and her friend.Small frys.Debbie and me are like so piss at them and she calls her a cockroach.Haha.Bahh.Cockanadens.PUNY LITTLE BRATS.Eventhough she's taller than me.Hah.Fuck her and her little group of friends.Wooo.I'm so violent,violent.Hur.Okok.Gonna do homework.Ltrs.

BUBU!! I don't SUX okays.I ROCK.Hurr.Not ROX.I'm Miss Saxxy Waxxy.

No matter what you say
I'll always win and lie

Miss Fortune.

Heys.Nonono.I don't think i love you.HAH.Love is such a stong word.I'm going crazy i swear.No no no.I take my words back.I don't like you anymore.But that doesn't mean i hate you too.Yeps.Okok.I just wanna rubbish now.Hurr.

Ahh.SCHOOL has been bleahs.All the rushing of doing homwork.Hurr.Sunday i spent my whole day doing english.I didn't even finish doing my compo which i couldn't be bother.Haha.Then talk to debbie till 12 and then i slept.Monday was school! NOOO.Haha.Yeps.Everything was just a bore.Mrs tay is shit.Keep on picking on me.Grrr.English i just wanted to sleep.Was yaking with debs.Hurr.Hahhhaha.Mrs boo was damn funny!! Haha.She's retarded actually.Heh.She looks better when she closes her mouth.I'm so evil.Had band after that.Was just crapping with tiffy.She talking to me in chinese while i was talking to her in malay.Heh.She's so cute la.Hurr.Finished at 615.Ate with justine and bern till 645.Got home at 7.Ate dinner then there was a blackout.Half of the block.Bloody hell.So me and my dad had a candlelight dinner.Maha.

Was on the phone with debbie and tiffy after that.HAHAHA.Zen is an asshole.He's a phsyco fella.Never met anyone as crazy as him.I mean crazy as in sick in the head crazy.Hahaha.Yea.Whole long story.Don't wanna say it.Hurr.Slept at 12 again.Was damn tired after that.Hahaha.Debbie so dumb.She said she was talking to her hoggy friend.So i was like what hoogy friend? then she said her MO HOG friend when it's suppse to be MOHAWK.Hahahaha.That's bloody dumb sia.

Couldn't wake up today.Drag my lazy arse outta bed.Reached school and lazed around.Homeroom after that.Tanya wanna nominate me be in sports commitee.Backside la that girl.Hahahaha.Yaya.Then was pe.We took height and weight.Haha.I every year wanna play cheat only.I'm 159cm now.=) I'm taller!! Hurr.Yepps.Hahhha.Then it was so dumb.Cause ms lim said that we have to use proper english now.So tanya was saying that we cannot scold chee bye anymore.We have to say pussy,pussy.HAHHA.Fine.

Recessed with sammy,sa and debster.Was talking about some hair thing.Hurr.Ohh.Then then then there was this stuoid sec2 girl! Ughh.Hated here since sec1.Really sia.That small fry thinks she damn big you know.Then she queued up behind me to be drinks.Then she was like talking damn loud and saying dunno what ska/punk.HEH.You know shit about skapunk!! Poser.Hurr.Then her friend stand so fucking close to me.What sia.

Went up when the bell rang.Mrs yeong was already inside.Heh.I don't like her.She picks on me too! Hurr.Was pratically falling asleep just now.She talking about blood cells and all.Boring like anything.Malay was okay la.I'm sitting next to citra!! What a hoe.Hur.Social studies was so fucking shitty!! Ms lim wanted us to hand in our fucking homework.And me and debs didn't even do it!! Hurr.We didn't even bring the sec3 book.And she wanted it by 3pm.We all rushing there like fuck sia.Took me 3hrs to do finish 8questions.Hahahahaha.There was so much to copy and sa's handwritting and english was just as horrible as ever.Dunno waddahell she writting sia.Her bloody civil war looked like a bloody and war.Accounts wasn't even listening to mdm kee.And tomorrow got spot test! What sia.Yesterday test,today test.Cock la.Hurr.

Finished my social studies at 2.15.Tiffy and nicole was playing this game where they write all the guys the know in alphabetical order.Hurr.Tiffy has many guy friends.Hur.Help sam with her banner after that.Then went to go help mrs saveries with the cca thing.Heh.Yeps.Put the baner up after that.Went for lunch with geri,sam,sa.Prata party!! with 2 cups of teh with milk.Hurr.I went to go order the prata.I said to the prata man.'I want one YEG prata and one kosong.' Hur.We crapped about cca and all.Hur.Headed home after that.

Gonna do abit of my geog homwork later.Hahaha.Don't wanna copy la.N's are like coming.Social studies prelims is on the 5Aug.So fast.Noooo.Hurr.I'm so not ready.Die die die.I hafta wrap my books.I got so angry with my dad that day cause he wrapped my book like his face.Angry sia! Hurrr.I'm ungreatful.Hurr.I want to cut hair.My hair is rechardedd.I want a new voice.My voice sucks.I want to sing like gwen stefani.HUR.I'm starting crap.Just whatever muni.Ltrs.

Hilsann.Hahaha.Cute eh? Hurr.

Hilsann's mouth.Got milk?

Me being spastic.Hurr

Look at my mouth.Hahha.


Spent a few days thinking about exactly what I would say
Suddenly I realized how much he meant to me

Under the red hot moon.

I think i love you.I think i love you.I think i love you.
I think i love you.I think i love you.I think i love you.
I think i love you.I think i love you.I think i love you.
I think i love you.I think i love you.I think i love you.
I think i love you.I think i love you.I think i love you.
I think i love you.I think i love you.I think i love you.
Because i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.
Because i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.
Because i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.
Because i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.
Because i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.
Because i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.

Bloody hell,i think i'm going crazy.Not gonna blog soon.My brother's a hogger.Stupid child.Wanna smack him please.Ugh.

Oh shit,i think i've hurt my back.Where's the wheelchair?

3 month curse.

i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.
i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.
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i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.
i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.
i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.
i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.
i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.
i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.i miss you.

That's so much 'i miss you'.heh.BAH.Go download all the i miss you song.HAH.Sighh.I wanna talk to youuuuuuu.It's so hard to find you online.Can you like ring ring my phone? It's been forever since we last talk.HAH.Bleahhs.I'm left always waiting.

Come on let me hold you,touch you,feel you always.Kiss you,taste you all night always.

God put a smile upon my face.

Heys.I'm so so tired.Hurr.Only after a day of school.Nooo.Hurr.Slept at 12 yesterday.Then i msg till i slept.Debs at 1 still msging people.'Anyone awake?' You the man deb.Hurr.Yups.Kinda happy to see all of them.=) Sa's hair was..no more Mr mat-punkrocker.It was so neat.Yep.Then like the principal babbled till 8.15.All the new teachers.

Went back to class.Ms lim our form teacher again.Okay la.Like all the teacher the same.I was like hoping we have new accounts teacher.But noooooooo.We don't have.Mdm kee again.Rahh.Thank god mrs i-cut-my-hair-with-a-bowl tay still taking us pe.Our not,we all would just die.Hurr.Change social studies teacher and physics.That's all i think.That means i have tons of homework to complete.

Met up with the other band girls.Performed at 1015 for those sec1s.It was okay la.Heh.Was crapping with tiffy after that.Hahhhaaa.She's bloody retarded/spastic/funny all at the same time.I was teaching her malay.Then she said to nadiah,'mata rambut awak kerenting'.MAHHHAA.Translation: Your eyes's hair curly.HURRR.Then she gave nadiah a malay name? Salleh.I can't remember what was mine.Her's was Raimah.Maha.Fine.That was all lame.Hurr.

Went back to class.Maths wit mrs tay.Noooo.We had test.Waddahell! That's assholic man.Hurr.Yepp.Then we got our school magazine.Okay la.Not much of my face.Why?! Hurr.Ate at the kopitiam after school.Oooh.Me and debs so dumb i swear.We were playing with tan's camera la.Then we dunno what button to press.So we down there recording vid instead of taking picture.Then we smile and smile.HAHAHA.So dumbb.Then she and dee down there laughing.Heehaw.After lunch was at sam's place.Just chillin' and all.Went home and did my maths after that.Wah.Write,write write until i can just faint.Damn tired sia.Yeps.Noooooo.My dad is home already.Argh.

Heehaw i can meet you tomorrow.Yepps.But i don't know if you're free.Maybe you won't read this? Maybe you will.Hmmm.call me or something if you wanna meet up yea? it's the only day i'm free.CALLL!! hahh.I don't knowww.I'm so whiny i swear.Yea.Gonna watch tele now.Ltrs.

Tiffy and me.I look so small.Barry is bloody big.


You were a dream,this is the longest time i've been with someone

I buy my crack,my smack,my bitch,right here in hollywood

Heys.Happy new year to all of yall ya? =) New years resolution? I have none.Haha.I can't abide by it.So why have resolutions.Hurr.Yeps.Hmm.Met debs and zen just now.Haha.That asshole is lame and funny.Heh.Yeps.Met them for awhile only cause my mum was nagging at me.Rah.Say what.I go out never tell her and all.Then my bloody grandma went to go say i go out with guy.Wtf? I don't even know zen at first.Anyways,whatever to her la.

Wanted to go to some bike trail but didn't in the end.Slacked at starbucks.Heh.I just got back my 7bucks and it's all gone.Hurr.Was suppose to go for some chalet but didn't in the end.My mum forced me to go to my auntie's mother-in-law's bbq.Rahh.Yeps.Went home first and all.Met my auntie and mum after that.

Talk to hildya.Mostly updating her on my life.Heh.Glad that she's really there to listen to my crap.-hugs.Yeps.Found the pit and we all just ate and all.Hildya went to go meet haojie after that.Yeps.Was alone.Just stonning and listening to old the old folks talk.Starhub's reception was so cock.Cannot even call out.Nahnia.Lousy lousy.Hurr.Yea.Reached home at 2.Yups.
Called debbie.Then called tanya.Mal is high.Haha.That girl is just drunk.Hahaha.Wanna tell us story.Hurr.

Was thinking about 2003.All those stupid times.Happy days.Haha.Was really funny.How i got so angry with my dad.Then i skipped school for a day.The syf camps.The band pratices with the ex-band girls.The oh-so boring june holidays.Sars.Syf competition.The dragon boating in sept.The partying in class.We were always munching on food.Hahaha.Msging in class.How we cried cause we were so scared we were gonna get retained.Creative comp.Breadcrumbers.All the band concerts.November/december holidays.How friendship between 2 friends grow.Every year is fond of memories.But i like 2003 the best.=)

Feeling emo-ish all of a sudden.Mix feelings.Confusion.I dunno.Feelings that come and go for that same person.You know who you are.Hmm.I dunno if telling you my feelings was the right thing.These days,we just seem to be quarreling over the silliest thing.It's me.I'm too sensitive.My feelings do take the better off me.Its funny how you'd always wanting to talk to the person you care for so dearly.But when he's online you pretend as if you don't care and talk all this rubbish crap that puts the both of you into an arguement.The truth is,i really do care.It's not right to say i love you.Cause i don't think it's love.I can't love you cause you don't have any feelings for me.And the truth is i really do miss you.And i'm really sorry if i did anything wrong to hurt you or so.

Heh.That's really very emo.But that's i have to say.All confessed.I hope 2004 will be as memorable as 2003.Ltrs.

these are my words i've never said before i think i'm doing okay and this is the smile that i, i've never shown before sombody shake me 'cause i, i must be sleeping.