Okays.So i havent blog for 1876362039days.My brother took the modem.And furthermore,i've been busy this days.Hah.Creative comp just rocks!! =) Heee.yay! We got in.And so now my nail is spoilt.Hah.Yea.Went back to class after schoopl and crapped ard.Then we recorded all our voices and played it over and over and over again.it was so funny!! hah.Hmm.Anyways,i'm so lazy to type.Hah.

Rain,Rain on my face

Heys.so my template screwed up.Stupid blogger.I swear this thing is fucked.Yups.So TODAY,I did nothing.Went for band today.After band,met tanya and dee.Went to eastpoint to eat.Heh.Got home and slept after that.Suppose to go to the gig today but veron couldn't make it so.we didn't go.and then at 4 she messaged me and ask if i still liked to go.but i didn't so.i spent the whole day sleeping.FUN.

Had a huge fight with han yesterday night.It went really bad.I duno what to do.He just cares about himself.He really really pissed me off bad yesterday.Hah.The best thing was that i was talkin to some perv.Hurhur.Yeah.Han did hurt me bad.The feeling is just...dammit.

And so you ask me to come online to talk to you.now you tell me.Just where the hell are you? i swear you just piss me off bad.

Hmm.Deb's place tomorrow.Creative comp and costume making.Yups.Anyways i feel too emo to type.

Your touch overrated,your lush and i hate it

Test tEst.My template is crazy.Maybe blogger is Crazy.Test tEst tEsst.

Is it me or is it the guys i mix with.HAH.This guy in irc is crazy i swear.What bra size do you wear.ERMM.hah.Sick i swear.Sickossss.Hahh.

Heys.Woke up at 10.00 today.Hah.So many messages on my phone.Hah.A few from han and 2 from sam.Hurhur.Yups.Hmm.Went to town today.Debating on wheather to where shoes or slippers which in the end i wore slippers.Hah.Yups.Met tanya at orchard.Walked to far east after that.Hah.We walked pass starbucks and saw the cute guy.Teeeeheeee.He's soooo cuteeee.Heh.Saw ms mah and ms juliana in there.Purposely went in there to see him.=).

Walked around to see tops.Hah.Saw this really cheap and nice top but they only had 2.Dammn.Hah.In the end we just bought some scrafs? Hah.That wrap around thing.Yups.And the dancers are wearing some white top with the nice material we bought at arab street.Hehs.Yups.The wearings are all right cause' sam's mother have it.Hehs.Hmm.Yups.

Went to go drink at starbucks.Hehs.The fella serving was cute too.We named him thai guy.Then the cute malay guy is Nemo.He looks like nemo.Hah.And there's A-MAN-DUH.hah.We crapped alot basically.Hah.Fun fun.Hah.That's about it la.Tomorrow going to the gig.Hehh.So not meeting farhan tomorrow.Yups.Hmmm.He's going with his girl.Hah.Just whatever pleaseee.I'm going with veron.Hah.I swear i'll feel damn out.Sigh.

What's my age again?

Heys.Hmm.Feeling a little bit better now.Ms lim came to class and reassured us.'Don't worry.' The thing i don't understand it that why the class don't get that big hint eh? Hurhur.Okays.Anyways.Practise Creative comp thingy today.Went well after recess.We played a new song.'Dance with me'.Fun fun.=) Yea.The class is in a total mess.I don't know what the hell is the rest of the class doing.Can't be bother la.Not my part too.I'm fine with anything.

Yups.Stayed back after school and pratice awhile more in the cca foyer.Then it struck us that our audition is on tuesday and we haven't done the clothes and all.Heh.So we stayed back after that and discussed.Heh.Pretty funny cause' we didn't know what to do.Yups.Then we were just bitching after that.HEH.=)

My fingeres are swollen.It's pain.Heh.My cousins just left.Noisy bunch of kids.Fighting here and there.Hehs.I can't be bother.Yups.I feel as if something's been taken out of my shoulder.I feel so relaxed.YAY! =) I just can't stop smiling.Hee.Hmm.Going to town to get the rest of our stuff tomorrow like earings and all.YAY! town town here muni comes.whoopEe! =)

What's the difference between a bitch and a whore?

Oh god.I feel like some loser.Why has it gotta be like that.I admit i didn't study hard enough.
I played my ass off.I slacked alot.I don't want to retain.Might as well i just jump down some block.
How embarrasing it is.The disappointment and embarassment.I don't want my parents to feel that way about me.
This is all i can give them.A good future.9 people retaining.How'd think i feel? Like i just got shot thru' the head.
Please put a gun to my head.As much as i want everyone to go up,it's not possible.Everything's really going wrong.
I'm really really scared out of my wits. I just want to break down.Tears are in my eyes.I'm feeling realy scared.My heart is beating so fast.I don't know wheather i can take it.SIGH.I think tomorrow's the day.

On a lighter note,we started our creative comp already.Got the whole class to participate with us.We did the song first.Spent have the day playing it.The skid was okay.Hah.Our class couldnt paint.We didnt have enough white paint.
Ms dotty face Chia didnt want to give white paint to white wash.And HELLO? our whole calss is painted blue.I swear the amount of paint we have is pathetic.And she rejected our design.HELLO? it's our class.Stupid old hag.My fingers are swollen from playing the contrast bass.Hah.Classical bass la.Strings are so thick.Have to cut my nails.Hah.The strings are ruining my nails.Hehs.Was figuring out the tabs.Abit blurred.Yups.

Been msging han the pass nights.I'm glad we talked about last time and now.How different everything was.Prolly will try to ring him later.I just can't get the retaining thing out of my head.I just hope i won't.I don't want my closest friends to retain too.I'll just cry.Life's a bitch.Espeacially now.

Ouiters never win.

Heys.Bleahs.My computer just chooses to hang at the time where i type an entry finish.So now i have too type everything back again.Stupid thing.Anywhos,got back our scripts today except for bio and physics.Hah.The ever smart Munirah passed only 2 subjects.Good la.English and Malay.I am so screwed.

Sigh.I don't want to go into detail.I just want to go up.I don't want to stay in shithole sacss for 6 years with their lame disciplin system.Sigh.Everyone was crying..I'm such a screw up.

Debbie: Don't cry.Your eyes are super puffy and red.Don't think about it already la.=)

Heys! Hah.Today was fun but abit tiring.Youth mission for the sec 3's today.Abit lame at first but it killed time.Hah.Was fun.Eugene was so fun.Hah.Taught us like real dancing.He's a professional dancer.Cool eh? Hah.Then had this play.And so called 'motivational' talk.Crap.Recess with debs today.Forever embarassing us.Hehs.Hmm.Went up and sang songs.Songs which i so do not like.Hah.Bored so i wrote all over my leg.Drew some punkrocker playing a bass complete with amps.Hah! was so cute.

Breadcrumbers were sitting together.Hah.Quite cute la.So we wrote on our legs la.Shoes la.And we signed.Hah.Lame but it was fun.Then we took photos and all.Hah.Played with debbie.Hah.Yups.Eugene was so nice.Hah.I can't stand that gay.Opps.i mean guy.Hah.He's so funky! Hah.=) He may want our band to come and play for him.Hah.Fun fun.! =) Overall enjoyed myself.

Got back to class.Received our Social studies Papers back.I passed.wh0aa.Hah.A 29.Aint that bad eh? Hah.Fine.Thick skinned.Hah.Yups. 165 all passed.Hah.-winks.Even lisa.-.- Hah.Yups.Tomorrow maybe getting our maths paper back.I don't want!! Of all the subject.maths.Dammit.Hah.Band afterthat.Abit boring.No one to talk too.Tiffy didn't come for band for 5900271904787690-years.Hah.Played the sax ensemble thingy.Hah.Barry so dirty and stinky.Hah.I can't stand him anymore.Hah.Went home with justine after that.

Oh.! New link! BreadCrumbs&Crew.Hah.Tanya and dee is our tour manager.Hah.We're gonna jam soon? That's what nic said.Ooh! We even design our band shirt.Just like doug eh? Hah.Debs brother.So nice the t-shirt.'Rocktones' Hah.Okok.Listening to The Wonders.RIGHT.Hah.One slow dance.PunkRock+70's.Hah.Ok.Going to play friendster now and and and Going to find tabs.

And when i close my eyes,you'll be by my side.

Heys.Sigh.Feeling damn fucked i swear.Everyone is irratating.My mum is a bitch.Have to yell for god knows what fucking reason.BAHH.Fuck everyone for all i care.Irratants.Didn't bother to go to class today cause i was damn sleepy and lazy like anything.I have an extra week to study my prayers.Band starts tomorrow.Long long day.Went to my auntie's today.While they were praying,i kept on sleeping.Hah.Stupis father or mine.Like the thingy starts after 4 and we were there at 2.30.Idiot.Nuthin much happened anyways.Thought of him the whole day.I miss him like fuck.I keep on remeniscing the times spent.The days we talked.Now,it's finally over.I'm becoming so shittingly jiwang.Hah.Been listening to cokelat the whole day.And i still haven't made that guy my friend! Hah.American beauty here i come.

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Heys! Hah.On the phone with deb,sam,tanya.Hah,Yup.Choosing song.Hah.Songs that i never heard before.Hah.I like save ferris.Hah,Found my cd yesterday.Hehs.Yups.Hmm.Slept lat 3 yesterday.Was waiting for him to come online.But he didn't so yea.I slept in the end.Hah.Yups.Was playing with friendster then i say the plain sunset guy.Hah,Yay! i'm going to make friends with him.=) Hah.Bah.Everyone is singing oldies.Hah.Just whatever.

Went to arab street today.Hah.It was going to rain as i thought.But it didnt.Turned out pretty hot.Yups.Was abit annoyed couldn't find what i wanted to wear today.Neh neh neh.Met tanya at lavender and we went to arab street.Got lost.Hah.So much for textiles.Hah.Then we found what we wanted.Hah.I like i like! Sequins and glitter thingy.Hah.Walked all the way to concourse after that.Ate.Hah.Thought we can find some stupid bus to go to town but we end up taking the shuttle bus.

Tanya thought it was some school bus for little children.Hah.Silly girl.Yups.Went to town after that.walked to far east.Forgot they were having the tapestry gig today.Saw many sequins thingy.Hah,Tanya went mad.Hah.Yups.Saw the cute starbucks guy.Hah.He was seeing the gig.Hah.Purposely went in starbucks to drink.He off duty already.Stupid child.Hah.Saw the gig a lil bit and tailed him to burger king.Hah.Stalker.Hah.Went t o dfs and sprayed perfume.Saw derryck they all.They were performin.Hah.Saw abdullah too.Hehs.

Went home afterthat.Train was full of people.I'm missing him like shit.Saw his friend just now.Hah,Ran away after that.Too scared that he'll be there.Sigh.I wanna play rancid.God knows why.Sigh.Hmm.Plain sunset's new album came out today. Hah.Yups.I'm going to play with friendster now.Hah.I'm feeling so fucked.

They can etch these words inside my brain

Heys! On the phone with debbels now.Hah.Tiring tiring day today.Went to arab street with tanya today.Hah.Got lost.

Heys! Hah.Stupid.I'm addicted to Friendster eventhough my circle of friends isn't wide enough.Hah.Yups.If i had known school was going to be boring today,i wouldn't have gone out.The weather today was so good.Hah.Raining! =) Neh neh neh.My mum said i didn't have to go to school if i didn't want to wake up.In the end i did.bahh.

Went up to 43's class room today.Hah.Made a mess of that class.So we were discussing about the creative comp.Hah.8mins to perform.What the hell.Like that might as well just don't do it.Played with the guitar.Hah.Learned chords today.But i cannot remeber only Em.Hah.Hmm.Going to arab street tomorrow with tanya to get the materials.Yay! Hurhur.Yups.

Went to joanna's hse after school.I sweatr that girl's hse is like a zoo! Hah.So many animals.But the hamster was so cute.Hah.And that big iguana.Mike.And all the birds in the toilet!! Was peeing then suddenly got this thing beside me.Hah.All the birds were watching.HAH! Malu siak.Hehs.Ooh then there's the snapping turtle.Wah.That one big.Weighs more than 5kg.Hah.Watch Grease and Austin powers after that.See how the dances and stuff.Hah.

Yeah.Got back soon.Took the bus and this stupid girl keep on staring at me.Give me that 'want to fight' look.Just whatever to her.Overheard her stupid convo with her friend.'Raj boy,chubby'.Neh neh neh.Saw aaron in the bus.Still owing me that photo book! HAH! Yups.Had dinner with my dad at simpang.Went to serangoon to see the light.After that went to my auntie's hse.Hah.Mundane life i live.=(

Hah.Tanya was telling us that a few days ago there was this guy.Wearing singlet,berms and carrying his guitar.Singing to her somemore.Blue skirt,White shirt,Black bag Cadillac HAH! then she walk one whole big round.Hah.Silly girl.Hah.Hmm.Not into the mood lately.Was huggin lisa just now.I almost cried on her.Hah.So many things is going thru' my mind.Hah.It's just bottling up to myself.

The whole day i kept thinking of him.Sigh.Everything i see is him.Hah.Boy crazy.He just don't know how much i feel for him.Those december times.I miss his voice.I miss him.=(.You don't know how much i've been missing you.Hah.All those sweet things you say to me.Touched me when i'm so pissed.Now.Everything is so fucking different.The way you treat me.Next saturday.Is our day.I'm not looking forward to it.I'm gonna cry..

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Hah.and the best part is that i'm not even attached.Best la.Hehs.Days swiftly come and go.HAH! Can't believe i'm singing to that cheesy song.Hah.Nothing much happened.Han's not gonna msg till next week.So..yups.Things are going to be different.That emoish feeling is coming back to me again.I so do not wanna feel this way.It feels crappingly shitty.Maybe i'm just sensetive.Sigh.I got the hang of frienster.So i got 11people on my list.Hah.Yups.Still wanna play with it tmr.It's over 12 and i'm not asleep and i have to go to school tomorrow.Good la.Hah.Today he asked.If i was really busy or if i was avoiding.Seriously..I dont know.I just can't bring myself to say no.If you only know how much pressure i'm facing..You just care about yourself.

Heys.Bah.Just wrote an entry and my brother came and disturbed him.Bastard.Just whatever to him.Yups.Boredom kills i swear.2marking days for us.Decided to chill at home today.Hah.Don't know about tomorrow though.Going to stay in again i guess.Yups.Jamming for us today..but i think everyone got their own plans.So yeps.No mini tour today.Hah.

Slept pretty early yesterday.12? Yups.Was waiting for my dearest to reply my msg but i slept.In the end he didn't.Neh neh neh.Hah.Got a message from han in the morning.Hah.He got pretty piss with me cause' i kept on saying i dunno to him.=/.Right.Hah.Sigh.I just want to get out of this mess i'm in.Damn.

Hah.Had a dream about han and me smoking?.Bahh.I would never smoke for nuts.Hurhur.Yups.Was messaging my dearest the whole day.Then he didn't reply.Bahh.Was keeping poor benny company too.Hah.He misses his comp.HAH.Yups.I remembered the time i fractured my leg.HAH! Stupid pen cover got stuck in my cast cause the ever smart me tried to scratch.HAH.Best la.Finch.Finch.yay! muni loves finch. Hah.

Sigh.I'm bored bored bored.I don't want to go back to school on friday.Friday means we're getting our papers back! -screams.Hah.I'm so not ready for it yet.Friday got.Bio,Physics,English,maths,accounts.Noooo! Hah.Oh.Then again.We wont be following time table cause' we're preparing for creative comp.YAY! =)

Stupid friendster.I don't know how to play with it! Nehnels.Bahh.I'm physced about creative comp.Heh.I like the idea that we're doing.Not allowed to say.Hah.But still i think we're so creative! Heeee.=) Yups.Next sat is the gig and fasting is 2 weeks more.Bleahs.I'm ready to lose all those fats! Hah.Saving up for my contacts.Yay! Probably going to get them next week.HAH.yea.Anyways going to have dinner now.Ltrs.

Like a saturday night i'll be gone

Okok.Back.Hah.Tired today.Bio was a can do paper if i just studied hard enough.I was totally just to tired to study my bum off.So i think bio cannot make it.Hah.Screw science la.Hehs.Morning was raining.Started chattering away.It was so cold.Bah.Finished the paper kinda early.8.45? But slept at 9.Hehs.Then mr hamzah la.Think he so smart went to hold the mic and say,'look at your papers sec 3s,Oh.Not the NA girls.You all can continue sleeping' Stupid shitter.Hah.Finished at 9.30.Carried the tables down and stuff.Damn.y table got bat shit! GRR.Hah

Went up to the hall for briefing of creative comp and class painting.Hah.The talk was sooo long.Me and sa was pratically dying there.She and her gastric and me and my cramps.Bah.Freaking pain i swear.Then sa was trying to be funny but she was totally Lame.Stupid child.Hah.Got back to class and discussed about the thingy.I'm in creative comp.=/ hahaha.Weird i know.Mostly the pfa girls la.Nic,sa,sam,jo,cherrie,tan,dee,jikok,prisca and me ohh.and sharon.Hah.Funny group of people.Hah.

Went back at 12.45.Me,trish and sam went to visit benny in the hospital.That fella tripped and fell and he broke his bones.Yikes.I feel the pain.Hah.So yea.Went there and saw Nigel and edward.Hah.I laid on the comfy bed.Hah.Yups.Left the place at 2.45? Yea.Poor guy taking exams tmr.Hehs.Yups.Made our way to town after that.

Met jo and the group people.Sa,clara also came along.Yups.We went bowling! Hah.It was so fun.I wasn't the loser for the first time.Hah.=) Happy happy.Hee.Yups.After that everyone went home.Me,sam and geri went to long john's to eat.Made our way home after that.Tiring.Was rushing back after that and there was this women.Such a senseless bitch.She cut our queue.Like whatever.Idiot.Hah.

No jam tomorrow.=( Hah.No mood to jam also lah.Maybe next week or something.Yups.Anyways going my auntie's house soon.Ltrs.

Hmm.Everyone's talking about the newpaper yesterday.Hah.About lesbianism .Hah.Stupid lower sec girls went to go say that if you're not crooked,you're weird. Like what the hell. This kind of thing also want to say.Lifeless creeps.Then there was another article on this girl.Dion Lin brainless sec 1.They were interviewing here about thongs.Nonsense.50 thongs.Just whatever.Ugh.Hah.

Okays.So now i'm suppose to go make friendster.What ever that is.Laters.

Heys.New blog.Getting sick of diary-x.Hah.Abit chilidish eh?.Diary-x.Hah.Mean thing.Yups.Yesterday was extreamly draining.Hah.Tired after all the wedding stuff and all.Yups.Woke up in the wee hours of the money.Used the comp in the morning.Hah.Suppose to study actually.Hah.So much for the book.Hehs.Was suppose to meet sa at my house.She wanted to get stuff from the market and i wanted to make my hair.

Some girl was damn early.Nehnels.Rushed just to wait for her.Thought that she would be early.In the end,waited for her.Hah,Went around the market buying stuff.Went to make my hair about 11.30.Rushing like some chicken.Bahh.The women la.Slow motion.Shit her.Hah.Rushed all the way home and changed.Hehs.Didn't even have time to put on makeup.Hehs.

Geri,nor and sharon went first.Hah.Me and sa got a cab and it started to rain.How nice.Hah.Yuppers.Got there and found those 3 girls.Sat down and soon the thing started.Sam look so pretty.=) Hah.Her gown sexy eh? Hurhur.=) Chris was there serving too.Hah.Happy happy sammels.Hah.And damien looked like ahmad.Hah.Lisa was trying to be some dumb photographer.Hah.Silly girl.That camera of her's is the most noisiest camera every heard.Hah.'bijittttttt'.Hah.

After mass we went to york hotel for the reception.Hah.Yups.Ate our hearts out.Hah.All the food was nice.Hah.After that we went dancing with sam and her uncles.Haha.Fun fun.=) Went home with a pot of roses in our hands.And we took the mrt home.Everyone was just simply staring.Just whatever.Hah.Went to hildya's house after that.Ate and then studied accounts.Heh.Was just crapping with all my cousins actually.Hehs.

Went home at around 11.Bathe and everything and settled in bed at 11.30.Smsing my dearest.Hah.We planned to sleep at 12 but i slept first.Hah.Sorry.Been a long time since i talk to him.Yups.Message han too.Crappy fella.Think he knows so much about mensetration.Hah.Just whatever to him.Hehs.Accounts 1 and Maths2 today.Maths was all right.The p;aper was okay.But if only i studied for the y=mx+c thingy.Hah.It's over also.Accounts was the best.Can't be bother.Hah.Know i'm going to fail accounts so why care.=) Yups.Anyways,tomorrow's the last paper.Yayness.Bowling for us tomorrow.Jamming on wednesday.YAY! =) Studying for bio now.Ltrs.